Wednesday, April 29, 2009
exams over, like totally cool. at least till the day results are out.
i miss u dear, if u had been here to enjoy the movie wif mi, i might enjoy the movie more. if u had been here to enjoy my post exam activities tog, everything would seem much enjoyable. 4 more days and counting down. if u noe tt i have been plucking my lips like nobody's business, i tink u would kill mi. omomo...
Friday, February 06, 2009
yes, failed yet again. how many lessons do i nd b4 i learn? when will i start being sensative to the ppl who love mi?
i m sorry.
i should haf known. i should haf.
it muz have been heart breaking. only now do i feel the pain.
用心去感觉
我始终没做到
我真的很自私
在你的被窝里我很渺小
微不足道，却举足轻重
用心去感觉。
妈妈：。。。明天有没有来吃饭？
女儿：没有
妈妈：为什么？
女儿：因为没有时间读书。
妈妈：做什么你今天没有去学校读书？
女儿：因为他晚上要去朋友的生日。去一下子又要送我回来了。
妈妈：den又有时间去朋友的生日？
女儿：。。。 。。。 。。。
要怎么回答？同样是生日。同人不同命。
我找不出为你说话的理由。
Thursday, October 16, 2008
为什么这样对待我？
我在你心目中到底什么地位？
我一点都不讨厌他，可是现在我不想听到他，更不想看到他。
我真的对你很失望。
我永远永远都不会忘记那一夜。
为什么结果是我一个人深夜独自流泪？
说我不趁为你付出过，但我的努力，你又何趁鼓励过？
现在只有他对你的好，他有多好。
我不敢说我对你的好因为我不知道我到底好不好，或者我已经不知道他是不是比我对你更好。
或者你需要的好我已经不可以给你了。
我只可以默默地承受。希望这样就是我可以给你的好。
哈哈。哈哈哈哈阿哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈。
tis muz b an abandoned blog tt no humans being will ever visit again. owell, it doesn't matter. juz had tis sudden urge to pen things down today after reading frens' blogs. probably the next post will b three yrs later when i had tis urge again. haha...
read mari's blog today, she sound so not her animore. muz b tinking alot now. can c tt she lost all her confidence n probably very very confused over frens... probably grow up after tis. jiayou mari!
been pondering over the word friend for the passt few weeks. realise tt it is very difficult to b a gd fren. looking at the way aiting treats her frens, looking at the way dear treats his frens, looking at how everybody treat their frens, i realise i haben been a gd fren. i haf alot alot more to learn. i m learning how to love, how to share, how to spare a thought for others, how to tink! didn't use to tink tt all of u were a wonderful batch of frens, cos i was too upset over losing mine. but i m learning to appreciate everyone of u all now. i hope time will gif mi a chance to b a gd fren to u all. thank you my frens, thank you for being my fren.
thank you dear, for all tt u gave, n all tt i learnt fr u. thank you for being more den juz a fren. thank you for being there, as a partner who is willing to walk by my side throughout my life.
Wednesday, February 01, 2006
MD concert over le.. realli muz thxn ppl whu came to support mi lah.. ppl like serene cheong guan, mum, nanny, bro, gary. thxn for coming.. realli thxn..
especially for the flowers and choc.. haha... hope we manage to sell enough tix so tt band will not b stuck in convention centre the next concert. out of so mani ppl, jiawei, xiao bai, sor zai, cindy, daniel, chee bye all got solo for tis concert. realli feel proud of them man... niwae, wun b hafing band prac for quite some time le, tink band room going to b under renovation soon. hope the result will b a gd one... wun b hafing band prac for quite some time le.. time to study!!! tests and exams coming soon. alamak!!! realli muz study le.. xiao bai n cindy going to grad soon le.. beri sad bout it.. tink all of us will bu she de the two of them lah.. we losing one left hander, but we r losing a right hander too!!! the population of left hander is going to conquer the right hander le lah!!! bui kia oso left hander!!! alamak, dunoe wat to blog.. not in the rite mood to do tt oso.. sian.. shall update some time later ba...
went swimming with the usual gang of ppl ytd at yj's hse. damn fucking shiok!!! played manjong till five b4 heading down to jiawei's ah gong hse there to swim.. yj happen to stay so near jiawei's ah gong hse. walking distance (cannot imagine they are juz slping few blocks away fr each other ytd) damn fun.
factors contributing to the fun were:
i won money during manjong
playground at yj's hse was damn high n exciting
swimming costs ZERO cent
swmming wif clothes instead of swimming costume without getting caught by the guard
found a free goggle fr the pool
jiawei swam despite "everiting"
food at jumbo was nice but ex
cannot imagine it lah.. 8 of us went to jumbo tog!!! 18 yrs of life, first time entering jumbo, wif frens instead of family. WOW~ damn happy.
realli feel fortunate to haf bout 10 ppl in our group. everi ten of us click wif each other... its hard to find tis kind of frens in poly i muz admit. i m lucky i muz admit. as long as ten of us remains happy with each other.. i will b contented.. dun haf to care bout wat other ppl sae. i dun gif a damn oso... lalala...
Friday, December 30, 2005
md camp ended ytd. lips rotting. guess it will take quite a few days for it to recover. still went for bbss alumni band todae. sound like shit todae. sad..
camp was quite alrite. but got into quite alot of trouble. si beh jialat. did alot of fun things n end up not hafing enough slp. well, all for the fun of it ba. guess we tis bunch of ppl realli to playful le.. always doing topid things. like jumping into the pool in the middle of the nite. bet if we got caught sure die until jialat jialat. but damn exciting n damn fun lah... cool.. long time since i last went into a pool. n i rmb saying tt i wan to go swimming since b4 o levels. i fulfilled my wish finally. after bout 2 yrs?? how efficient.
still got 2 reports to rush n 2 assignments to complete b4 sch reopens. i wonder how i can complete it lah. still nd to study for tests when sch reopen. i tink i realli m not going to do well for tis sem. ~NOOoooooo.....
Saturday, December 24, 2005
E learning sux!! tt's my conclusion after sitting in front of the com fr 5 plus till 11.30. finish wat ought to b done le.. but i tink i juz scraped thru. sad... tink tis sem cfm cannot do well. alamak!!! too slack le..
niwae, went for class chalet. was late like hell. biao mei as usual told mi stuff like, u come here keep plates ar? well, tt' s him.. haha... damn hungry when i reach chalet. but didn't eat much cos not much food left le. all i ate during tt chalet is one hotdog, one fish cake, two piece of chicken n fruit punch. pathetic sia!!! sumore the fish cake n fruit punch is the nice lady fr next door give us one. cos they got too much food n couldn't finish. sad!!! i asked enouch y they gif us food. his ans damn funny. cos we r dogs tt take food fr other ppl. he sae tt time realli beri funny. haha..
left the chalet wif serene n his bf. thxn for the ride to niu niu's hse. still beri impressed tt he couldn't reach niu niu's place in like four mins?!!?!! its beri near, but i dunoe y i still beri impressed. alamak!!! i m a shua ku. spent the nite at niu niu's hse wif his sec sch frens n xiao bai. didn't do much tt nite, watched european gigglo n wedding crasher. not too bad... quite funny but damn cock!! cock until i almost cannot tahan.
the following dae wei they all came over to niu niu's hse for the christmas party. got alot alot alot of food. got alot of ppl oso. but we still didn't manage to finish the food. we too weak le. played manjong whole nite. conclusion: i lost 12 bucks! haha... but well, enjoyed it lah.. although towards the end we like torturing ourselves lydat. haha... came back early in the morning after tt cos niu niu's hse got no space to slp. slept all the wae until 5 plus. den do e learning. after so much fun, nd to piang e learning. sian.
niwae, camp is next wk. i hope i wun b too tired. too now i oreadi start to feel a bit sickly le. hope i dun fall ill during camp. if not sian... hope the camp will b fun...
Wednesday, December 21, 2005
long time didn't blog le. hse under renovation, no time to blog. no com to blog oso. plus bro is always hogging the com.
e learning week, got more thing to do den during sch lah. den i spending it like hols. as if everiday can slack. alamak!!! birthdae juz passed. thxn everione whu wished mi. ppl like xiao bai, wei, niu niu, edmund, cindy, jun yue and alot more. realli thxn..
went for xiao bai's sch alumni band todae. played simple pieces like air for band, pirates of carribean.. was quite fun.. ppl down there quite friendly. jing jing was there wif mi. luckily, pushed all the first parts to her. haha.. thxn jing jing.. wahahha.. i m evil man.. but niwae, enjoyed myself..
dad's birthdae todae, but going to spend the dae wif my classmates at downtown east. hafing class chalet down there later on. i m late!! haha.. but i hope it will turn out fun... hopefully i get to eat immediately after i reach there. haha...
Thursday, November 24, 2005
mum's birthdae todae... met them on the bus to go to clarke quay to haf dinner. celebration is not the same animore.. it didn't use to b lydat last time round. things r damn beri different le... i rmb i use to haf fun whenever someone's birthdae is coming. now, even the food dun taste nice animore. mayb it realli doesn't taste nice. or mayb its mi... well... happy birthdae mummy!!!!
Monday, November 21, 2005
accompany mum to marine parade ytd to send samples over to some ppl. realise tt i haven't been keeping her company for a beri beri beri long time. until i can't even rmb when was the last time i acc her to some place or had lunch wif her. i'm sorry mummy... a week wif seven days like not enough for mi lydat. been real bz recently. wif wat?? let mi c...
been bz wif playing dota. going out wif the usual bunch of ppl n band.. yes.. band took up most of my time le ba.. hafing prac on 4 out of 7 days a wk... siao!! but i didn't improve at all lah. my embrochure is gone... forcing myself to use reed 3.5 cos sch dun haf 3 le.. i m going to die if i continue using 3.5. if i dun die den i tink i will protest n stop playing clarinet. since playing tt instrument in clarinet section is nv the same animore. i can't concentrate during sectionals animore. niwae, i oso sound like shit, not beri needed in the section oso. will onli make the section sound out of tune. no point oso.. i dun practise concert pieces animore. i m sick n tired of them for a reason or another. concert is at esplanade but i dun feel the excitment tt i felt animore. mayb things r all diff now. n i noe things will nv b the same. i even haf to gif up wat i realli dun wish to gif up. even by keeping it wun salvage aniting. well... mayb i m juz a silly ger tt broods over sumting super duper small n tiny tt nobody can rmb. but i took it to heart. it will always b in my heart...
Friday, November 18, 2005
i choose dota over lesson!! i m so proud of myself.. serene sae she dowan to lend mi tutorial to copy. sad!!! but i enjoying myself now!! cos it's dota time!!!lalala....
Wednesday, November 09, 2005
sch started le.. but to mi, everidae still like hols. juz tt i dun get to slp so much le. everi weekend is exciting for mi lah. spent sat playing manjong at home. lost bout 80 cents. haha... den sun went for beautiful sunday at esplanade for west wind concert. played light songs, but still felt tired after the whole thing. after tt went dota. can u believe it?!!??! DOTA!!! haha.. niwae, it was fun. won in the end, guess i didn't make much contribution though. haha.. BUT I GOT THE FIRST BLOOD!!! i m so proud of myself! niu niu manage to bring the other team down alone lah. he attacked the base himself. well, he's real gd i muz sae. as for sor zai, he's gd too. juz tt he keep killing mi. sad! played cs after dota. sux.. got some motion sickness n i felt like vomitting after tt. haha.. switched to manjong after tt. after all the gaming went bk to haf dinner b4 heading home wif xiao bai. well, fun dae.. i enjoyed myself on sun quite alot. new experience playing game in a lan shop. cool
Wednesday, October 26, 2005
been wanting to thxn dear for a beri long time.. but i nv haf the chance.. so i m saying a big thxn you to u down here. thxn for being my fren all these while. u r not juz a fren, not juz a best fren. u mean alot alot to mi. u affect mi alot in everiting tt i do. u taught mi alot of things. u changed mi. alot. without u, i wun b whu i m todae. i swear i wun... i use to b quiet, keeping everiting to myself, not opening up to others easily. mayb the whole world oso dun believe i'm quiet blah blah blah.. but tt onli goes to prove tt how much u changed mi, into a beta person i guess.
u taught mi how to b happy n show ppl tt i m happy. i use to tink tt showing ppl how happy u r, u r revealing the weak side of u. its like ppl will snatch ur happiness away fr u. fr r, i learnt how to b happy n tell ppl tt i m happy. i saw the happiness in u tt affected others to b happy too. u taught mi how to b proud of the things tt i haf. taught mi how to tell ppl tt i m proud of tt thing. so tt ppl noe how fortunate i m, so tt ppl noe mi beta. taught mi not to choose frens, if not ppl will oso choose u. taught mi how to overlook ppl's weak pt n look at their strong pt. so tt tt person seems so much beta. taught mi how to open up to others so tt others will open up to mi. taught mi how to ask for help when i needed help so tt i wun b so helpless. taught mi tt alot alot.. things tt mayb no other ppl on earth r able to do it. for everiting tt u taught mi, i realli wish to sae 100 thxn. cos it meant alot to mi.
other den thaking u for wat u taught mi, i oso wan to thxn u for being there for mi all these while. whether i m down or up in life, u r always there for mi. so i shall do the same for u. dun feel paisey when i m there. dun dun call mi cos u feel tt u r troubling mi. u came all the wae down to my hse when i needed u. wat more could i ask for? thxn!!!
been real long time since i last blog. com chu stun, always auto shut down. tink my com realli dun like mi. whenever i use it, it will shut down on mi. when frens at home, it operates like nobody's business. attitude com! fuck! but everiting should b fine now. went simling todae to change the whole bloody cpu. so my com now got sound, is fast n stops shutting down on mi. great thxn to cousin. thxn for doing all the shit for a computer idiot like mi.
exams over le... did quite well i muz sae. got 2As 1B+ the rest all B. got gpa of 3.34. best among all the three sems... didn't check all these shit myself. biao mei checked it for mi. thxn man.. called mi early in the morning to wake mi up juz to ask mi how did i do. i didn't even rmb result was out lah. com was dead so he checked everiting for mi. he even automatically told mi my extra module result lah. damn gd.. i swear i m going to treat him to sumting nice when we graduate. i swear!
ok.. some beri interesting things tt happened during the period of time tt i didn't blog.... we went band room to study everidae. ok, mayb not study. but i realli enjoyed tt period of time where we played n studied tog. ppl like dear, momo, saihow, stella, cindy, xiao bai, chi bai, sor zai, niu niu, randy blah blah blah.. can't imagine how we study wif tt many ppl. but i realli beri happy. been a real long time since i last felt so happy. realli... well, perhaps we wun ever haf the chance to do it again, but memories will always follow mi. i forever will rmb all these ppl. i swear!
i got alot of things to sae still, buden irritating bro is asking mi to gif up the com. irritating~~
i will b back!!!
Monday, September 12, 2005
exams coming soon. haben start studying. like how great huh? m not doing beri well in class tests compared to all my classmates, so i tink i probably wun do well again tis sem. low.. ppl in my class getting distinctions and As. sian man, pressuring mi alot alot.. sian.. i will study hard!!!(i hope)
plant design sux man.. noe no shit n wed is the lab n theory test.. core module! ica!!! high liao high liao... suppose to b doing my assignment now for plant design, n i practically dunoe aniting, dunoe how to do!!! lalala... WONDERFUL!!!! i muz jiayou le.. hope god of sumting like god will appear n teach mi how to do..
my time table for exams:
CP5010
FLMECB
20 Sep 2005
9:00am - 11:10am
T1A46
46
MS8105
LIALG
21 Sep 2005
6:00pm - 8:10pm
T3A21
40
CP5009
CREACT
23 Sep 2005
2:00pm - 4:10pm
T1A68
164
CP5023
THERMO
27 Sep 2005
9:00am - 11:10am
T1A56
65
MS2224
EMIIB
29 Sep 2005
2:00pm - 4:10pm
T1A67
114
Thursday, September 08, 2005
accompany sumo to return tuba to his sec sch ytd. bukit merah. juz nice xiao bai going cmpb, so fetch him there first b4 sumo, jingjing n mi went to bukit merah. saw terrence !!!!! super handsome. haha..
had fun ytd... was walking ard bukit merah wif sumo n jing jing. went to mac to eat ice cream(xin fu). den after tt sumo suggested going to ntuc(auntie place). since got nutting to do, so we went lor.. tok cok all the wae man.. comment on everi food tt i saw. n sumo scold mi for everiting tt i sae. -_-" jingjing telling mi tis biscuit put wat wat wat nice to eat, sumo had to come scold mi sae " she so lazy, ask her eat biscuit lydat she oso lazy liao, u still ask her put tis put tt." low... den after tt saw ricola tt had a new packaging, sumo had to go "sua gu!" low low low.... whole trip he juz scold mi like hell lah. sing oso let him sae.. he even threaten to strangle mi if i sing sumore.(didn't stop mi either) haha... was waiting for xiao bai to finish his foto taking at cab stand. den saw tis machine tt everi kid will like. the kind where u put a dollar in, turn, den got toy come out tt kind. cool lah, three of us went to buy a super duper cute keychain fr there. haha... mine is green, jing is pink, sumo is yellow. cool. xiao bai was so so so jealous when we showed him the toy n gave him the emtpy cover. haha.. sori xiao bai.. lalala... did i mention tt we even brought 4d at ntuc?? didn't strike. low!!!!!
Saturday, September 03, 2005
ibm concert over le.. hope everione whu came for the concert enjoyed it. on top of tt, hope everione whu
performed for the concert enjoyed it.. family,nanny n gary came forthe concert. hopefully they aren't bored by it.. notto forget serene tand sok ling!!! haha..thxn for coming man. but pls bring FLOWERS here next time!! haha... realli grateful to her man. she's been supporting every concert of mine man... thxn!!! love ya lots!!! cindy, thxn for ur tortoise!!! hahaha... i took the tortoise everiwhere juz to hao lian i got present lah! haha... if not nobody gif mi flowers.. saded. haha... dear got lots n lots of choc. she realli beri happy bout it. so xian mu!!! hahaha...
had foto taking after concert. all the wae until 11 lor.. took foto wif lots of ppl. yuan jun is damn cute lah. waiting for ppl to take foto wif him. still come n complain to mi tt nobody wan to take foto wif him. haha.. he beri cute.. haha.. had supper after tt wif whole bunch of band ppl. they took train while sumo, yuan jun n mi take bus. cos we got bus concession. enojoyed toking to yuan jun n sumo on the wae there.epecially yuan jun, he will always sae sumting tt is nice lah, despite his super duper cold n not funny jokes. haha... tok cok during supper.. blah blah blah.. den went home wif parents le... enjoyed myself... poor dear, she got no voice for quite some time le.. was sitting opposite mi during supper, den c her whispering to stella cos she got no voice. poor thing. hope she recover soon man..
went to band room at 1 plus ytd planning to study for my test after collecting notes fr serene. studied for like 15mins, den start to fall aslp liao. after 5mins, wake up. told sor zai wake mi up at 2.45. den slp all wae liao. haha.. didn't study at all lah. nonsense man. sor zai realli woke mi up at 2.45, took my notes n stuff went str for test le. haha.. wasn't tt bad, tink i will b able to pass. hehe... went out wif dear, sumo, xiao bai, sai how, raf, daniel, randy, sor zai and wachi after tt. walked ard town until we finally settle down at bk for dinner. after tt went tcc for coffee tok. an expensive one sumore. enjoyed myself.. reached home at like 12 plus man. thxn sumo for sending mi n dear home. haha.. cos it after 12 le. haha...
