juz came back fr md camp.. gd camp.. learnt stuffsssss... hmm... gd gd.. came back home wif heavy foot steps..
things at home r still like b4 i went for the camp. onli diff is beside the sink, there's a new bottle of washing detergent, hse fone faulty..
am toking to dear now.. first thing she said to mi is tt she got no aim in life.. but noe she got alot. said tt nutting matters but actually everiting matters.. so wat is my aim in life? wat matters to mi?

AIM
happy family
improve in playing the clarinet
gd md concert

WAT MATTERS
mummy
bro
nanny
dear
attention

feel like i m at the lowest pt of my life so far.. was tinking wat happened in my whole life since i haf memory while i was bathing..
i m juz a beri ordinary ger. a ger whu likes barbie dolls. enjoy combing the hair of barbie doll. enjoy playing catching wif cousins. enjoy watching cartoon. enjoy doing watever tt ani other little ger like. realli ordinary ger.. but didn't grow up normally i guess. there r alot of happy things in my life. but of cos there r unhappy things tt happened too. like being caned by ah ma when u did sumting wrong. had a fight wif ur bro. quarrelled wif ur best fren. but nutting is comparable to wat i m feeling now. can't afford to indulge in self pity. so i still put on a smile when i c ppl out there. laugh when funny stuff is happening. but when can i start smiling from my heart? i miss the life tt i haf when i was still young. going to ah ma hse when mum goes to work. playing wif my cousins. return home when mum is back. bringing us out on fri when she go no work. everiting has changed. for the beta? for the worst? i got not idea. as long as mum is happy. den mayb tt is all tt matters. i miss my ah ma.. hope to c her soon...