u believe in believing. told mi tt nutting is impossible if u believe in it. but all along i dun tink tt wae. i dun believe in it. cos things tt r impossible, will still b impossible no matter how u beileve in it. when faced wif challenges, u will face it, beat it, n u win the battle eventually. for mi, i wun, i wun haf the courage to. i will run away fr it. if i can't i'll learn to live wif it, gifing my wae to it. yes i'll do tt. tt is how timid i m.
tink u noe alot bout my life. mayb u realli do. but there is still a large part of my life tt u dunoe. tt nobody noes. not even u, not even her. n it will nv b made known. cos i m a timid ger. cos i'll learn to live wif it, not fight it. cos i want everiting to myself. onli myself. i will choose to shut myself into myself. cos nobody can help mi even if i open myself to u, or anione. so i choose to b tis wae. yes tis wae. to myself.
i haf no courage to read the diary tt u wrote. in fear tt it will tear the smile tt i always put on my face,to reveal the real mi. i dowan anione to c it. not even u. n yes, everiting to myself again. if by tinking tt i luv no more, u'll forget mi, yes, pls tink tt wae. cos i shutted myself in. by believing in watever tt u believe in still dun change tis fact tt there r still things tt cannot b done. or mayb its juz mi running away fr things again rather den facing it. diff ppl haf diff wae of handling things. yes, i will handle wif mi myself n i onli.
i dun believe in tog 4ever bcos of him. cos time made mi realise tt i'll not feel for him animore as time passes. or mayb wat u sae is rite, time dun heal the wound, but made u n mi live wif the pain forever. cos i'll feel pain again whenever he cums to my mind. but ur arrival made mi wan to believe in it again, but deep down, i still noe tt its not possible. bocs of my timid nature i guess. or do u call it once bitten twice shy?
i m sori to leave u when u nd mi the most, i realli realli hope tt things will b fine for her. pls let her b fine...
so wat if we realli survived poly? i noe we wun survive army, i wun b tt naive to believe in tt. cos i will choose to run away fr tt challenge again. cos i dun haf the courage. u can throw everiting tt i given u away. yes, u can. i haf no objections. but i'll keep urs. everiting of urs. cos i chose to run away, not throw away. all the things will remain here wif mi...