rebecca

I miss u so

2009-04-29T01:46:00.002+08:00

exams over, like totally cool. at least till the day results are out.

i miss u dear, if u had been here to enjoy the movie wif mi, i might enjoy the movie more. if u had been here to enjoy my post exam activities tog, everything would seem much enjoyable. 4 more days and counting down. if u noe tt i have been plucking my lips like nobody's business, i tink u would kill mi. omomo...

failed yet again

2009-02-06T23:19:00.002+08:00

yes, failed yet again. how many lessons do i nd b4 i learn? when will i start being sensative to the ppl who love mi?

i m sorry.

i should haf known. i should haf.

it muz have been heart breaking. only now do i feel the pain.

用心去感觉
我始终没做到
我真的很自私
在你的被窝里我很渺小
微不足道，却举足轻重
用心去感觉。

2008-10-19T00:04:00.003+08:00

妈妈：。。。明天有没有来吃饭？
女儿：没有
妈妈：为什么？
女儿：因为没有时间读书。
妈妈：做什么你今天没有去学校读书？
女儿：因为他晚上要去朋友的生日。去一下子又要送我回来了。
妈妈：den又有时间去朋友的生日？
女儿：。。。。。。。。。

要怎么回答？同样是生日。同人不同命。
我找不出为你说话的理由。

2008-10-16T23:46:00.002+08:00

为什么这样对待我？
我在你心目中到底什么地位？
我一点都不讨厌他，可是现在我不想听到他，更不想看到他。
我真的对你很失望。
我永远永远都不会忘记那一夜。
为什么结果是我一个人深夜独自流泪？
说我不趁为你付出过，但我的努力，你又何趁鼓励过？
现在只有他对你的好，他有多好。
我不敢说我对你的好因为我不知道我到底好不好，或者我已经不知道他是不是比我对你更好。
或者你需要的好我已经不可以给你了。
我只可以默默地承受。希望这样就是我可以给你的好。
哈哈。哈哈哈哈阿哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈。

Thoughts

2008-07-23T02:27:00.002+08:00

tis muz b an abandoned blog tt no humans being will ever visit again. owell, it doesn't matter. juz had tis sudden urge to pen things down today after reading frens' blogs. probably the next post will b three yrs later when i had tis urge again. haha...

read mari's blog today, she sound so not her animore. muz b tinking alot now. can c tt she lost all her confidence n probably very very confused over frens... probably grow up after tis. jiayou mari!

been pondering over the word friend for the passt few weeks. realise tt it is very difficult to b a gd fren. looking at the way aiting treats her frens, looking at the way dear treats his frens, looking at how everybody treat their frens, i realise i haben been a gd fren. i haf alot alot more to learn. i m learning how to love, how to share, how to spare a thought for others, how to tink! didn't use to tink tt all of u were a wonderful batch of frens, cos i was too upset over losing mine. but i m learning to appreciate everyone of u all now. i hope time will gif mi a chance to b a gd fren to u all. thank you my frens, thank you for being my fren.

thank you dear, for all tt u gave, n all tt i learnt fr u. thank you for being more den juz a fren. thank you for being there, as a partner who is willing to walk by my side throughout my life.

2006-02-01T14:04:00.000+08:00

happy new yr everione!

2006-01-23T14:18:00.000+08:00

MD concert over le.. realli muz thxn ppl whu came to support mi lah.. ppl like serene cheong guan, mum, nanny, bro, gary. thxn for coming.. realli thxn..
especially for the flowers and choc.. haha... hope we manage to sell enough tix so tt band will not b stuck in convention centre the next concert. out of so mani ppl, jiawei, xiao bai, sor zai, cindy, daniel, chee bye all got solo for tis concert. realli feel proud of them man... niwae, wun b hafing band prac for quite some time le, tink band room going to b under renovation soon. hope the result will b a gd one... wun b hafing band prac for quite some time le.. time to study!!! tests and exams coming soon. alamak!!! realli muz study le.. xiao bai n cindy going to grad soon le.. beri sad bout it.. tink all of us will bu she de the two of them lah.. we losing one left hander, but we r losing a right hander too!!! the population of left hander is going to conquer the right hander le lah!!! bui kia oso left hander!!! alamak, dunoe wat to blog.. not in the rite mood to do tt oso.. sian.. shall update some time later ba...

2006-01-08T19:59:00.000+08:00

went swimming with the usual gang of ppl ytd at yj's hse. damn fucking shiok!!! played manjong till five b4 heading down to jiawei's ah gong hse there to swim.. yj happen to stay so near jiawei's ah gong hse. walking distance (cannot imagine they are juz slping few blocks away fr each other ytd) damn fun.
factors contributing to the fun were:

i won money during manjong
playground at yj's hse was damn high n exciting
swimming costs ZERO cent
swmming wif clothes instead of swimming costume without getting caught by the guard
found a free goggle fr the pool
jiawei swam despite "everiting"
food at jumbo was nice but ex

cannot imagine it lah.. 8 of us went to jumbo tog!!! 18 yrs of life, first time entering jumbo, wif frens instead of family. WOW~ damn happy.
realli feel fortunate to haf bout 10 ppl in our group. everi ten of us click wif each other... its hard to find tis kind of frens in poly i muz admit. i m lucky i muz admit. as long as ten of us remains happy with each other.. i will b contented.. dun haf to care bout wat other ppl sae. i dun gif a damn oso... lalala...

2005-12-30T23:22:00.000+08:00

md camp ended ytd. lips rotting. guess it will take quite a few days for it to recover. still went for bbss alumni band todae. sound like shit todae. sad..
camp was quite alrite. but got into quite alot of trouble. si beh jialat. did alot of fun things n end up not hafing enough slp. well, all for the fun of it ba. guess we tis bunch of ppl realli to playful le.. always doing topid things. like jumping into the pool in the middle of the nite. bet if we got caught sure die until jialat jialat. but damn exciting n damn fun lah... cool.. long time since i last went into a pool. n i rmb saying tt i wan to go swimming since b4 o levels. i fulfilled my wish finally. after bout 2 yrs?? how efficient.
still got 2 reports to rush n 2 assignments to complete b4 sch reopens. i wonder how i can complete it lah. still nd to study for tests when sch reopen. i tink i realli m not going to do well for tis sem. ~NOOoooooo.....

2005-12-24T00:01:00.000+08:00

E learning sux!! tt's my conclusion after sitting in front of the com fr 5 plus till 11.30. finish wat ought to b done le.. but i tink i juz scraped thru. sad... tink tis sem cfm cannot do well. alamak!!! too slack le..
niwae, went for class chalet. was late like hell. biao mei as usual told mi stuff like, u come here keep plates ar? well, tt' s him.. haha... damn hungry when i reach chalet. but didn't eat much cos not much food left le. all i ate during tt chalet is one hotdog, one fish cake, two piece of chicken n fruit punch. pathetic sia!!! sumore the fish cake n fruit punch is the nice lady fr next door give us one. cos they got too much food n couldn't finish. sad!!! i asked enouch y they gif us food. his ans damn funny. cos we r dogs tt take food fr other ppl. he sae tt time realli beri funny. haha..
left the chalet wif serene n his bf. thxn for the ride to niu niu's hse. still beri impressed tt he couldn't reach niu niu's place in like four mins?!!?!! its beri near, but i dunoe y i still beri impressed. alamak!!! i m a shua ku. spent the nite at niu niu's hse wif his sec sch frens n xiao bai. didn't do much tt nite, watched european gigglo n wedding crasher. not too bad... quite funny but damn cock!! cock until i almost cannot tahan.
the following dae wei they all came over to niu niu's hse for the christmas party. got alot alot alot of food. got alot of ppl oso. but we still didn't manage to finish the food. we too weak le. played manjong whole nite. conclusion: i lost 12 bucks! haha... but well, enjoyed it lah.. although towards the end we like torturing ourselves lydat. haha... came back early in the morning after tt cos niu niu's hse got no space to slp. slept all the wae until 5 plus. den do e learning. after so much fun, nd to piang e learning. sian.
niwae, camp is next wk. i hope i wun b too tired. too now i oreadi start to feel a bit sickly le. hope i dun fall ill during camp. if not sian... hope the camp will b fun...

2005-12-21T17:15:00.000+08:00

long time didn't blog le. hse under renovation, no time to blog. no com to blog oso. plus bro is always hogging the com.
e learning week, got more thing to do den during sch lah. den i spending it like hols. as if everiday can slack. alamak!!! birthdae juz passed. thxn everione whu wished mi. ppl like xiao bai, wei, niu niu, edmund, cindy, jun yue and alot more. realli thxn..
went for xiao bai's sch alumni band todae. played simple pieces like air for band, pirates of carribean.. was quite fun.. ppl down there quite friendly. jing jing was there wif mi. luckily, pushed all the first parts to her. haha.. thxn jing jing.. wahahha.. i m evil man.. but niwae, enjoyed myself..
dad's birthdae todae, but going to spend the dae wif my classmates at downtown east. hafing class chalet down there later on. i m late!! haha.. but i hope it will turn out fun... hopefully i get to eat immediately after i reach there. haha...

2005-11-24T23:19:00.000+08:00

mum's birthdae todae... met them on the bus to go to clarke quay to haf dinner. celebration is not the same animore.. it didn't use to b lydat last time round. things r damn beri different le... i rmb i use to haf fun whenever someone's birthdae is coming. now, even the food dun taste nice animore. mayb it realli doesn't taste nice. or mayb its mi... well... happy birthdae mummy!!!!

2005-11-21T11:57:00.000+08:00

accompany mum to marine parade ytd to send samples over to some ppl. realise tt i haven't been keeping her company for a beri beri beri long time. until i can't even rmb when was the last time i acc her to some place or had lunch wif her. i'm sorry mummy... a week wif seven days like not enough for mi lydat. been real bz recently. wif wat?? let mi c...
been bz wif playing dota. going out wif the usual bunch of ppl n band.. yes.. band took up most of my time le ba.. hafing prac on 4 out of 7 days a wk... siao!! but i didn't improve at all lah. my embrochure is gone... forcing myself to use reed 3.5 cos sch dun haf 3 le.. i m going to die if i continue using 3.5. if i dun die den i tink i will protest n stop playing clarinet. since playing tt instrument in clarinet section is nv the same animore. i can't concentrate during sectionals animore. niwae, i oso sound like shit, not beri needed in the section oso. will onli make the section sound out of tune. no point oso.. i dun practise concert pieces animore. i m sick n tired of them for a reason or another. concert is at esplanade but i dun feel the excitment tt i felt animore. mayb things r all diff now. n i noe things will nv b the same. i even haf to gif up wat i realli dun wish to gif up. even by keeping it wun salvage aniting. well... mayb i m juz a silly ger tt broods over sumting super duper small n tiny tt nobody can rmb. but i took it to heart. it will always b in my heart...

2005-11-18T16:04:00.000+08:00

i choose dota over lesson!! i m so proud of myself.. serene sae she dowan to lend mi tutorial to copy. sad!!! but i enjoying myself now!! cos it's dota time!!!lalala....

2005-11-09T14:14:00.000+08:00

sch started le.. but to mi, everidae still like hols. juz tt i dun get to slp so much le. everi weekend is exciting for mi lah. spent sat playing manjong at home. lost bout 80 cents. haha... den sun went for beautiful sunday at esplanade for west wind concert. played light songs, but still felt tired after the whole thing. after tt went dota. can u believe it?!!??! DOTA!!! haha.. niwae, it was fun. won in the end, guess i didn't make much contribution though. haha.. BUT I GOT THE FIRST BLOOD!!! i m so proud of myself! niu niu manage to bring the other team down alone lah. he attacked the base himself. well, he's real gd i muz sae. as for sor zai, he's gd too. juz tt he keep killing mi. sad! played cs after dota. sux.. got some motion sickness n i felt like vomitting after tt. haha.. switched to manjong after tt. after all the gaming went bk to haf dinner b4 heading home wif xiao bai. well, fun dae.. i enjoyed myself on sun quite alot. new experience playing game in a lan shop. cool

A ThankYou Entry

2005-10-26T23:32:00.000+08:00

been wanting to thxn dear for a beri long time.. but i nv haf the chance.. so i m saying a big thxn you to u down here. thxn for being my fren all these while. u r not juz a fren, not juz a best fren. u mean alot alot to mi. u affect mi alot in everiting tt i do. u taught mi alot of things. u changed mi. alot. without u, i wun b whu i m todae. i swear i wun... i use to b quiet, keeping everiting to myself, not opening up to others easily. mayb the whole world oso dun believe i'm quiet blah blah blah.. but tt onli goes to prove tt how much u changed mi, into a beta person i guess.

u taught mi how to b happy n show ppl tt i m happy. i use to tink tt showing ppl how happy u r, u r revealing the weak side of u. its like ppl will snatch ur happiness away fr u. fr r, i learnt how to b happy n tell ppl tt i m happy. i saw the happiness in u tt affected others to b happy too. u taught mi how to b proud of the things tt i haf. taught mi how to tell ppl tt i m proud of tt thing. so tt ppl noe how fortunate i m, so tt ppl noe mi beta. taught mi not to choose frens, if not ppl will oso choose u. taught mi how to overlook ppl's weak pt n look at their strong pt. so tt tt person seems so much beta. taught mi how to open up to others so tt others will open up to mi. taught mi how to ask for help when i needed help so tt i wun b so helpless. taught mi tt alot alot.. things tt mayb no other ppl on earth r able to do it. for everiting tt u taught mi, i realli wish to sae 100 thxn. cos it meant alot to mi.

other den thaking u for wat u taught mi, i oso wan to thxn u for being there for mi all these while. whether i m down or up in life, u r always there for mi. so i shall do the same for u. dun feel paisey when i m there. dun dun call mi cos u feel tt u r troubling mi. u came all the wae down to my hse when i needed u. wat more could i ask for? thxn!!!

2005-10-23T22:01:00.000+08:00

been real long time since i last blog. com chu stun, always auto shut down. tink my com realli dun like mi. whenever i use it, it will shut down on mi. when frens at home, it operates like nobody's business. attitude com! fuck! but everiting should b fine now. went simling todae to change the whole bloody cpu. so my com now got sound, is fast n stops shutting down on mi. great thxn to cousin. thxn for doing all the shit for a computer idiot like mi.
exams over le... did quite well i muz sae. got 2As 1B+ the rest all B. got gpa of 3.34. best among all the three sems... didn't check all these shit myself. biao mei checked it for mi. thxn man.. called mi early in the morning to wake mi up juz to ask mi how did i do. i didn't even rmb result was out lah. com was dead so he checked everiting for mi. he even automatically told mi my extra module result lah. damn gd.. i swear i m going to treat him to sumting nice when we graduate. i swear!
ok.. some beri interesting things tt happened during the period of time tt i didn't blog.... we went band room to study everidae. ok, mayb not study. but i realli enjoyed tt period of time where we played n studied tog. ppl like dear, momo, saihow, stella, cindy, xiao bai, chi bai, sor zai, niu niu, randy blah blah blah.. can't imagine how we study wif tt many ppl. but i realli beri happy. been a real long time since i last felt so happy. realli... well, perhaps we wun ever haf the chance to do it again, but memories will always follow mi. i forever will rmb all these ppl. i swear!
i got alot of things to sae still, buden irritating bro is asking mi to gif up the com. irritating~~
i will b back!!!

2005-09-12T10:54:00.000+08:00

exams coming soon. haben start studying. like how great huh? m not doing beri well in class tests compared to all my classmates, so i tink i probably wun do well again tis sem. low.. ppl in my class getting distinctions and As. sian man, pressuring mi alot alot.. sian.. i will study hard!!!(i hope)
plant design sux man.. noe no shit n wed is the lab n theory test.. core module! ica!!! high liao high liao... suppose to b doing my assignment now for plant design, n i practically dunoe aniting, dunoe how to do!!! lalala... WONDERFUL!!!! i muz jiayou le.. hope god of sumting like god will appear n teach mi how to do..
my time table for exams:

CP5010
FLMECB
20 Sep 2005
9:00am - 11:10am
T1A46
46
MS8105
LIALG
21 Sep 2005
6:00pm - 8:10pm
T3A21
40
CP5009
CREACT
23 Sep 2005
2:00pm - 4:10pm
T1A68
164
CP5023
THERMO
27 Sep 2005
9:00am - 11:10am
T1A56
65
MS2224
EMIIB
29 Sep 2005
2:00pm - 4:10pm
T1A67
114

2005-09-08T11:52:00.000+08:00

accompany sumo to return tuba to his sec sch ytd. bukit merah. juz nice xiao bai going cmpb, so fetch him there first b4 sumo, jingjing n mi went to bukit merah. saw terrence !!!!! super handsome. haha..
had fun ytd... was walking ard bukit merah wif sumo n jing jing. went to mac to eat ice cream(xin fu). den after tt sumo suggested going to ntuc(auntie place). since got nutting to do, so we went lor.. tok cok all the wae man.. comment on everi food tt i saw. n sumo scold mi for everiting tt i sae. -_-" jingjing telling mi tis biscuit put wat wat wat nice to eat, sumo had to come scold mi sae " she so lazy, ask her eat biscuit lydat she oso lazy liao, u still ask her put tis put tt." low... den after tt saw ricola tt had a new packaging, sumo had to go "sua gu!" low low low.... whole trip he juz scold mi like hell lah. sing oso let him sae.. he even threaten to strangle mi if i sing sumore.(didn't stop mi either) haha... was waiting for xiao bai to finish his foto taking at cab stand. den saw tis machine tt everi kid will like. the kind where u put a dollar in, turn, den got toy come out tt kind. cool lah, three of us went to buy a super duper cute keychain fr there. haha... mine is green, jing is pink, sumo is yellow. cool. xiao bai was so so so jealous when we showed him the toy n gave him the emtpy cover. haha.. sori xiao bai.. lalala... did i mention tt we even brought 4d at ntuc?? didn't strike. low!!!!!

2005-09-03T15:23:00.000+08:00

ibm concert over le.. hope everione whu came for the concert enjoyed it. on top of tt, hope everione whu performed for the concert enjoyed it.. family,nanny n gary came forthe concert. hopefully they aren't bored by it.. notto forget serene tand sok ling!!! haha..thxn for coming man. but pls bring FLOWERS here next time!! haha... realli grateful to her man. she's been supporting every concert of mine man... thxn!!! love ya lots!!! cindy, thxn for ur tortoise!!! hahaha... i took the tortoise everiwhere juz to hao lian i got present lah! haha... if not nobody gif mi flowers.. saded. haha... dear got lots n lots of choc. she realli beri happy bout it. so xian mu!!! hahaha...
had foto taking after concert. all the wae until 11 lor.. took foto wif lots of ppl. yuan jun is damn cute lah. waiting for ppl to take foto wif him. still come n complain to mi tt nobody wan to take foto wif him. haha.. he beri cute.. haha.. had supper after tt wif whole bunch of band ppl. they took train while sumo, yuan jun n mi take bus. cos we got bus concession. enojoyed toking to yuan jun n sumo on the wae there.epecially yuan jun, he will always sae sumting tt is nice lah, despite his super duper cold n not funny jokes. haha... tok cok during supper.. blah blah blah.. den went home wif parents le... enjoyed myself... poor dear, she got no voice for quite some time le.. was sitting opposite mi during supper, den c her whispering to stella cos she got no voice. poor thing. hope she recover soon man..
went to band room at 1 plus ytd planning to study for my test after collecting notes fr serene. studied for like 15mins, den start to fall aslp liao. after 5mins, wake up. told sor zai wake mi up at 2.45. den slp all wae liao. haha.. didn't study at all lah. nonsense man. sor zai realli woke mi up at 2.45, took my notes n stuff went str for test le. haha.. wasn't tt bad, tink i will b able to pass. hehe... went out wif dear, sumo, xiao bai, sai how, raf, daniel, randy, sor zai and wachi after tt. walked ard town until we finally settle down at bk for dinner. after tt went tcc for coffee tok. an expensive one sumore. enjoyed myself.. reached home at like 12 plus man. thxn sumo for sending mi n dear home. haha.. cos it after 12 le. haha...

2005-08-31T10:45:00.000+08:00

super duper suay these few days. shit happens man.. leg kana bitten by some mosquito like creature during band prac. swollen until like pig trotter tt dae. sux... the bite is like HUGE!!! whole world asking mi wat happen to my leg. saded.. super duper itchy. ytd band prac, accident happen again. door bang onto my hand when raf open the door. suay.. morning lesson kana cancelled and onli got to noe it when i reach my hse bus stop. low!!!! went to band room to slp. haha.. stella and randy came in not long after tt. here to do the programme booklet. saded. so early n so mani things to do!!! jiayou stella!!!
told myself tt i will listen to lecturer todae during lecture. seems like i didn't AGAIN. *sigh* its a core module and tis module is wat i will b doing for my FYP. i c no future le! haha...

2005-08-25T09:07:00.000+08:00

cong qian de wo bi jiao kuai le

Reason: cong qian de wo wu zhi
izzit memories r always sweet??

is there ani blog tt allow u to blog in chinese?? tink tt will b cool

2005-08-24T10:55:00.000+08:00

didn't blog for quite some time. hse com is realli jialat until cannot blog at home le.. blogging during class again. boring lecture. realise i noe no shit for tis module. plant design. best of all, FYP is on tis man. die...
been kind of sick these few days. hafing flu n a sore throat. suddenly rmb a chinese story book tt dear lent mi. the writer said tt ppl whu fall out of love tend to dun recover so fast fr flu. cos they themselves dun wish to recover. flu by nature is a sad sickness. well, i hope i recover soon!!! haha.. sore throat sux lah.. was speaking so softly on tue tt i even asked my class guy to treasure tis dae, cos i m like so gentle on tt dae!!!! WAA!! sumting new..
went to sports hall to play badminton wif dear, xiao bai, jing jing, chee kaymiang, evon.. few other ppl joined us later. was realli fun until some staff came n snatched our court man. "todae is staff dae" win liao lor.. sian.. returned to band room not long after tt. ppl whu brought clothes went to bath lah. luckily ivy got ndoc shirt in her phole. so changed into her shirt after tt. i suppose i dun stink so much after tt le ba? realli had fun. next tue go again!!!! wahaha...

2005-08-17T09:40:00.000+08:00

cheng mo gua yan

2005-08-15T00:52:00.000+08:00

went for phil youth concert todae. wif a whole lot of ppl.. all wore black. haha.. cool.. saw a few ppl tt i noe performing. ppl like yuan jun, marcus, darren... shouted yuanjun's name after the concert. no doubt he's super duper happy bout it lah. but he still pretend he nv hear. simply disgusting!! haha.. niwae, he's a funny guy. his "HUhhhhhhhhh" will always make mi laugh. haha... walked ard after the concert. trying beri hard to hide fr someone but still got caught lah. esplanade so big still kana caught. sian!!! suai rite??!!!???!!!

went to town for dinner after tt wif family, nanny n his bro's family. seoul garden for dinner.. food wasn't beri nice cos kind of sick of bbq food. niwae, ate like nobody's business... walked ard after dinner. was looking for bro's bermudas n sch bag. he got everiting tt he wanted todae. muz b damn happy bout it lah.

too nice to b true....

2005-08-10T09:15:00.000+08:00

did alot of thing this few weeks.. juz didn't haf the mood to blog bout it.. sad..

niwae, 9 human beings came to my hse ytd to play manjong n watch ndp! haha.. jiawei, xiao bai, stella, cindy, yue yuan, sai how, sor zai, daniel, jingjing came over.. played manjong, heart attack, watch ndp, eat, eat, eat, eat, eat and eat... ordered two large pizzas, 8 out of 10 piece chicken, 4 medium potato, pepsi with little ice fr kfc. den after tt still got 10 chicken wings, plus fruits.. alot alot of food. in the end cannot finish. haha.. but jiawei did her best in eating. hahah... it was beri obvious. all the oranges were ate by her.. haha.. almost all.. haha... ndp was bad tis yr.. was pretty irritating when they switch the programme fr padang to yishun, tampines, jurong east, marina south.... like chinese new yr lydat.. beri irritating.. gave up after awhile, went to play manjong. haha.. enjoyed myself.. hope the other nine human beings enjoyed themselves too... was kind of sad when they left.. xiao bai n sai how should noe the reason. haha.. cos i nd to do MATH!!! haha.. but niwae, found out tt the test is postpone to next wk! YES!!!!!!!!! todae can go kbox withoug worry le. :):):):):):):):):):):):):)
i m so excited bout going to kbox!!! lalalala... i hope ppl like yuan jun will not hold onto the mic n dun gif it to us!!! haha...

fake!

2005-08-07T22:17:00.000+08:00

its not a fear animore

it came true

change is for show

change wif a motive

its onli a matter of time

xin qing cheng zhong

2005-08-03T09:01:00.000+08:00

a good change in him

she don't seem to appreciate it

a change for good or for show?

worst fear coming true??

2005-07-20T01:29:00.000+08:00

had a tok wif dear juz now online.. feeling beta now.. was toking bout three yr plan, buying 4d, bout aiming n not hoping.. she realli made mi feel tt there is always hope in life.. she's the one tt make mi feel tt no matter wat happen, she will b there for mi. n i noe she will b there of cos.. she's the one whu will also support the sky for mi when it drops. thxn dear. i luv u zhang jiawei!!!

the escapist

2005-07-19T22:54:00.000+08:00

i'm sorry

u should noe whu u r if u r reading tis.. sorry for all the harsh words tt i used on u tt nite. pls blame mi. i haf no one to blame if u dun forgive mi. i noe i deserve all tis. u can hate mi forever. i deserve all tis. sorry..

its true tt life is nv smooth sailing.. juz when i tout i was picking myself up, finally able to walk happily for at least quite awhile.. den everiting came faling down again.. i fell again.. i'm hafing prob facing problems. i lost the ability to face up to things tt r happening.. or i nv acquire tt ability b4. i will escape.. pretend nutting happen. juz like wat i did tis morning.. i hope ur change for the beta didn't come too late. i hope my fear will not come true. for i cannot handle tt. i mean i realli cannot. i suffered it once b4. i dun wish to suffer it again. cos i nv realli recovered fr the previous fall. i noe there's a prob, but i nv had the courage to find out. the fear of knowing the truth is too huge. the truth might b too much for mi. i choose to escape.. pls dun let mi noe aniting.. i choose not to noe aniting. i choose to escape.. its a beri bad habit. i noe i should face up to it. but i cannot handle the truth. tt's rebecca.

2005-07-17T16:48:00.000+08:00

went to swensen at holland v to haf unlimited scoops of ice cream for juz 5 bucks wif dear.. juz the two of us. haha... power! she had TEN SCOOPS of ice cream man!! while i had 8.. haha.. damn funny.. she's eating like the ice cream will run away if u dun eat faster.. haha... had fun on tt dae.. realli.. its been such a long time since we spent time tog.. juz the two of us.. lalalala...
the unlimited scoop is realli worth it man.. so we decided to go again on wed.. lalala... shiok!! hope xiao bai wun miss it again.. if not he will b sooooo jealous.. hahahahaha...

2005-07-09T22:59:00.000+08:00

clarinet section finally chosen the section com piece le. got funny name.. eline kine dun wat wat.. find out liao den let u guys noe.. the section sounded quite ok overall.. hope everione in the section will enjoy playing the piece.. at least i noe cindy likes tt piece alot. haha..
happy tt mi n dear spent time tog todae.. its been a long long time since we last did tis:)

2005-07-09T22:56:00.000+08:00

dear bestfriend,

you just had your much awaited talk with me. although busy & preoccupied with many other stuff, i will always remember the girl that's about a palm shorter than me who once said she'd support the sky for me if it ever drops on me. i will always remember.. (:

love,
JIAWEI.

-

ehh.. where you dye your hair ah ? <3

2005-07-09T00:47:00.000+08:00

super duper happy tt i finished both reports le!!! yes!! yes!!! yess!!
watched the chinese drama you fu. tink its not nice.. niwae, tink todae last episode. onli like the song by ou de yang.. cute n simple song. like the lyrics beri much.. den got to hear it fr the radio juz now.. super happy.. lalala....

fatigue

2005-07-06T09:09:00.000+08:00

i'm mentally tired..
evidences of it: edmund- rebecca u ok anot? u todae like funny funny lydat. beri tired izzit?
raf- u ok anot? u look beri tired...

was on the bus when i saw tis poster tt wrote: Thaliand. happiness on earth. everyone is happy here. i wanna go...

long time since i last blog.. was bz wif reports.. sheryl even skipped sch todae juz to do report. wat the.. how wonderful... onli nice thing tt happened was on sat.. bbq... didn't eat much, but was quite fun.. listened to ppl telling ghost stories of band room, telling ppl ghost stories of band room. sitting at the jetty n enjoying the view, the sky, the stars.. trying to act pitiful so tt ppl will bring mi food. n most importantly, talk cok! the best deal was when xiao b sent jocelyn, jermaine n mi home!!! wahaha... cool man.. long long time since i last sat on a car.. big car sumore.. was realli kind of excited bout it.. like mountain tortoise lydat... but i realli was excited bout it.. like, wa! cool man.. got car.. big car! thank you xiao b, for the nice ride home..

2005-06-29T21:25:00.000+08:00

after so mani days.. i finally can sae tt todae shampoo my hair, shampoo didn't go into my eyes!!! lalala.. i m so proud of myself.. cool!! if tml when i shampoo my hair n i nv kana again, i shall blog bout it again... pray pray pray.. lalala...

2005-06-29T09:03:00.000+08:00

had a exciting wk end.. went sentosa on sat. had tons of fun.. enjoyed myself.. hope all the others whu went enjoyed themselves too.. was playing volleyball tt didn't realli succeed.. den captain's ball.. den water battle.. thxn fadhi for letting mi drink so much water! haha.. his laughter is enough to send everione there laughing.. izzit all band members oso got funny funny wae of laughing? haha...
went phil winds concert on sun wif biao mei. thxn him for the treat man.. haha... the concert was nice.. beri impressive i muz sae.. missed the first piece bcos i was late.. n biao mei scolded mi like hell.. sian.. but second half first piece was nice.. like it alot.. La Quintasenza.. should b spelt lydat i suppose?? lao bao was swinging his tuba when he's playing man.. wow!!
after the exciting wkend, got two tests on mon n tue.. math n thermo... got 42/50 for math.. but the almost the whole class is getting 45 n above?? tink 3 or 4 of them got full marks! siao!! my class ppl all siao.. SIAO SIAO SIAO SIAO SIAO!!!!!

2005-06-23T09:55:00.000+08:00

went for a hair cut ytd wif dear, kmiang n juliet.. dear didn't cut hair. she juz accompanied us... hair shorter now.(obvious) i m toking nonsense. haha.. but tink not obvious enough to let ppl go, u go cut hair ar?? but like the hair cut.. feels beta.. hehe... lalalala... n kmiang looks so much beta now wif the new hair cut. at least i tink so. hehe...

2005-06-22T10:45:00.000+08:00

its one hr n 15 mins b4 i get alive again.. three hrs lecutre.. wonder how the lecturer survives teaching for 3 hrs. i'm like dying oreadi...
niwae, i had a nice dream ytd nite.. it was so damn real. i swear for a moment i tout its true.. how i wish i dun haf to wake up fr tt nice dream of mine...

by heart or by mind?

2005-06-20T20:56:00.000+08:00

should we love someone by heart or by mind?? for example, brought a gift for my nanny ytd. brought the same thing for my bro's godfather. for nanny is out of love, but for bro's godfather, guess its my mind telling mi tt i haf to get sumting for him. mayb tis is no love, but obligation?? ( izzit lydat spell??) m i stating my pt here?? i sound abit idiotic man... or should i sae, sumtimes ppl love someone, but ppl noe they shouldn't like tt someone. so wat should the person do?? go by heart or by mind?? anione gif mi an ans??

todae beri suai.. early in the morning tripped on myself, den scratched my ankle wif my toe nail. missed the bus todae one the wae to sch even though i was early. cos the bus was too crowded, couldn't squeeze. came home, bath.. den shampoo got into my eyes( although it gets into my eyes frequently) pls dun laugh at mi!! after dinner, was walking ard the kitchen, stepped on a puny sharp object tt hurt like hell. so small, yet i stepped on it. wat the?? i realli tink i m getting old man... my ankle hurts.. tink i strained it too much. but i m like still so young?? 17?? i m hafing a body of 70... bad bad bad.. ke lian ke lian wo ba...

2005-06-18T19:20:00.000+08:00

was toking to zeyu during prac ytd.. talked bout being rational or not.. he's one whu follows the mind n not the heart.. looks like one too. i m one whu follows the mind too.. didn't noe he could tok so much cok.. was rather surprise when he asked us to gossip. blah blah blah.. well, at least i dun feel so weird toking to him now.
percussion concert went on beri smoothly.. had supper at clementi ytd. it was real fun..(at the expense of skipping lots of lectures). well got alot of catch up i guess. went there wif a huge bunch of ppl man. quite a few freshies went wif us too. ppl like ronald, sai how, yih mei, kaymiang, fadhi... blah blah blah.. the whole mac was occupied by the band man.. haha.. listened to sai how's interesting story, tok hell lots of cok.. i enjoyed myself in short. rebecca is a happy ger:)

2005-06-16T23:33:00.000+08:00

been thinking hell lots of things recently.. especially when i'm alone, on the bus, b4 i can fall aslp whenever i haf nutting to do.. its a bad thing... i tink too much. i shouldn't b so hard on myself.. juz do watever tt i wanna do.. but i cannot..my heart n my mind aren't agreeing on each other...

niwae, human beings r a funny bunch of ppl. including myself.. all mad. they do things they not suppose to do. dun do things tt they r suppose to do. sae wat they not suppose to sae, keep quiet bout wat they realli wan to sae.. plus a whole lot of rubbish. tis is wat they call life i guess...

FO camp

2005-06-15T09:11:00.000+08:00

FO camp ended.. it was fun.. grouped wif stella, sai hao(ru hua), johan, melody, alvin, ching si, cheryl. came in 2nd.. but it doesn't matter we came in last or 2nd or first.. the process was wat was the most impt.. haha... hope everione enjoyed themselves during the fo camp. especially the freshies, since tis camp is for them. haha... ru hao's make up was well done man.. but too bad no beauty peagant. wasted... well the nite was long, tok cok, listen to ronald.. hahahahahahaha.... cute guy... slept, talk, slept, talk for the whole nite man.. by the time i realli wake up, alot of ppl oreadi went home le.. went upstairs to find dear, fahdi, johan n can't rmb whu down there.. tok n tok n tok n tok. tt's bout the everiting tt i did.. talked non stop... after tt went to band room... ordered pizza...wasn't cheap at all man.. 6 bucks for two pieces.. but well, as long as its nice n everione enjoyed it, den its ok..
dear they all went off after tt. leaving mi, raf, ayub, cindy, xiao bai, james n ivy in the band room. everione was feeling slpy n hot. ayub n cindy fight for fan, xiao bai n ayub fight for bed.. den innocent ppl like mi kana tied up by masking tape, thrown into the slping bag n shifted to a pathetic area under the table used for percussion's accessories. well, at least cindy got wat she deserve oso!!! wahaha.. she oso kana the same thing. haha...
FO was fun, but wasn't in the best of mood to enjoy it man. was kind of affected after the captain's ball thingy.. but well, told myself not to let it spoil my mood. sumting happened after treasure. i realli fell kind of low after tt.. well.. all i can sae is FO was fun.. lalala.. rebecca is a happy ger...

2005-06-08T09:17:00.000+08:00

rained todae while i was on my wae to sch.. damn sian... slipper was wet when i reach sch.. topid.. den when i reach sch, rain stop.. dots.. cannot rain later ar??!! niwae, left all my lecture notes in band room. couldn't get key to get my notes... i realli understand the importance of KEY man!! recalling the time whereby i haf to wait outside band room for ppl to open the door.. omg! HORRIBLE!!!:(
boring lesson now.. plant design n stimulation. lecturer telling the class useless stuff like the company tt invented the software. SIAO!! he has been at it for half hour le.. pro.. my class more pro, seems like they r listening to him.. MORE PRO!!
todae is a gd dae too.. cos its wed! haha.. got gems.. gd gd... i can predict todae is a gd dae.. lalalala...

2005-06-06T14:27:00.000+08:00

todae is a gd day.. wahahaha... best fren will noe y.. lalala...

first band prac

2005-06-01T09:02:00.000+08:00

first band prac started ytd.. clarinet section onli haf 5 freshman.. one bass clarinet, 4 clarinets... got one super duper attitude ger tt refused to go up to the podium ytd.. guess she wun come on fri animore aniwae.. so mayb clarinet will onli haf 4 freshies?? haha...
laughed hell lots ytd... the best was when caren's bf kissed her.. wow!!! niwae, her twin bro, her bf r all in the same band now.. tt's like so wonderful.. like one happy family lydat. cool... can't imagine how would i react if i were her.. but its not going to happen, so dun nd to tink so much oso.. hehe...
went home wif dear n her juniors ytd.. turn out one of her juniors staying ard my area.. so we went home tog.. cool... seems like a nice guy... look like ayub... especially the forehead. niwae, it seems like every freshman look like someone in band.. dots.. especially daniel's junior-le yin... I RMB HER NAME!!! wahahaha... she look like jermanine, kaymiang, den still got dunoe whu.. common face izzit? haha...
hafing lunch wif dear n her juniors todae.. hope we will enjoy it.. lalala....

2005-05-30T09:27:00.000+08:00

in sch now.. sch officially starts for mi le.. first lesson, late.. lalala... lesson started immediately man.. tt's like so wonderful huh?!?! topid time table... got three breaks in a day.. wat the hell???
monday time table juz sux...
8-9 eng math 2
9-10 break
10-11 dunoe wat topid lesson
11-12 break
12-2 lesson
2-3 break
3-5 lesson

sux!!!

juz discovered tt got 31 hrs of lesson in a wk.. EXcluding calculus.. wonderful!!! stella'a 23 hrs of lesson a wk sounds beta den mine oreadi.. well... work work work... jiayou ba rebecca...

2005-05-29T17:13:00.000+08:00

sch starting tml le... happy... at least sumting to keep mi occupied. beta den staying at home n watch tv... look at all the topid shit tt is happening at home.. blah blah blah.. niwae, com is down again!!! shit!!! wun b blogging for a long time i guess.. wonder when is the next time where i will drop by my cousin's hse... n use his com to blog..
sian, tink i m going to lose all my fotos if i reformat my com. tt is like so so so so so so sian... but aniting is beta den not even being able to go online.
there goes the 1.5 months of hols... things tt i learnt:
-procrastination is bad for health
-being urself is impt

can't tink of wat else oreadi.. shall end here... lalala....

2005-05-22T23:01:00.000+08:00

Most Definitely

2005-05-16T14:59:00.000+08:00

MD is over.. over juz lydat.. practised so hard.. den lydat jiu finish le. tt's like beri fast man.. a smooth concert i guess.. but wondering how mani ppl came ytd.. it was a happy concert for mi.. had tonnes of fun taking foto wif everione. especially my section. haha.. ah beng wif the fabulous t-shirt made ur make fun of him for the whole dae.. edmund wif candice's bag, tt made him the nanny of the section oreadi. hahahaha... chun meng wif half a clarinet n still expecting us to carry it for him.. was looking for his shoes for almost an hour b4 he found it. sian.. haha... cindy was bz whole dae running here n there. muz haf been hard on her... guess she is real relieve to c tt concert went smoothly.. dennis n chermaine "graduated" fr the band le. lost the slackest SL.. no more taking breaks on our own animore.. haha.. sincerely thxn both chermaine n dennis for all the guidance.. come back more often, the section will miss u.. oso thxn dennis for tt badge, for the attitude prob on the badge. haha...

other den tt, oso wan to thxn lifen for the gift, but she forgot to tear down the price tag. haha.. was realli surprise tt she gave mi sumting. thxn.. hope u will come back more often to c us n all the best in watever tt u do in the future. oso wanna thxn kyle n danny for styling my hair. thxn kc for the flower n stuff. GREAT thxn to serene n bf, wai shin, mummy, nanny, bro, gary for turning up for the concert. realli thxn.. hope they enjoyed the concert.

wo zhuo wan hen kai xin!

2005-05-12T11:54:00.000+08:00

blogging in sch now while waiting for best fren to arrive. she's late as usual... haha... but she got her reason.. well.. fair enough, den i haf the time to blog. haha...

told dear bout wat dad told mi. she ask mi not to bother bout wat dad said. but it did bother mi. ALOT in fact. was still losing slping hrs ytd nite juz bcos i was tinking of wat dad said... guess dad still matter to mi, if not his words wouldn't bother mi... wat the topid hell bout dun mix ard wif her so much.. blah blah blah.. didn't even listen on to wat he has to sae.. shitty man wif shit i his mouth.. er xin er xin er xin!!

was realli touch after reading wat dear wrote in her blog.. shall save all the mushy stuff, juz wanna sae, without her, i wun noe wat will i b now. i thxn her... for everiting tt she brought mi, for everiting tt i haf bcum bcos of her.. thank you dear..

2005-05-05T11:31:00.000+08:00

results r out... didn't do beri well.. but i did my best.. so nutting to b sad of.. juz sian when u hear classmates saying things like they got 5 As den one dist. watever. haha.... here r my results:

CPPA ------ A
AP chem ---- B
Gems ------- B
AE&E ------ B
CD --------- B+
Materials --- C+
CRS ------- C+

lalala... the thing tt is worth being happy bout is dear actually did well for her maths.. hehe.. A for fun math n B+ for engineering math if i did rmb wrongly.. gd for her man.. realli is happy for her.. continue to work hard!! lalalala....

2005-04-29T17:50:00.000+08:00

juz came back fr md camp.. gd camp.. learnt stuffsssss... hmm... gd gd.. came back home wif heavy foot steps..
things at home r still like b4 i went for the camp. onli diff is beside the sink, there's a new bottle of washing detergent, hse fone faulty..
am toking to dear now.. first thing she said to mi is tt she got no aim in life.. but noe she got alot. said tt nutting matters but actually everiting matters.. so wat is my aim in life? wat matters to mi?

AIM
happy family
improve in playing the clarinet
gd md concert

WAT MATTERS
mummy
bro
nanny
dear
attention

feel like i m at the lowest pt of my life so far.. was tinking wat happened in my whole life since i haf memory while i was bathing..
i m juz a beri ordinary ger. a ger whu likes barbie dolls. enjoy combing the hair of barbie doll. enjoy playing catching wif cousins. enjoy watching cartoon. enjoy doing watever tt ani other little ger like. realli ordinary ger.. but didn't grow up normally i guess. there r alot of happy things in my life. but of cos there r unhappy things tt happened too. like being caned by ah ma when u did sumting wrong. had a fight wif ur bro. quarrelled wif ur best fren. but nutting is comparable to wat i m feeling now. can't afford to indulge in self pity. so i still put on a smile when i c ppl out there. laugh when funny stuff is happening. but when can i start smiling from my heart? i miss the life tt i haf when i was still young. going to ah ma hse when mum goes to work. playing wif my cousins. return home when mum is back. bringing us out on fri when she go no work. everiting has changed. for the beta? for the worst? i got not idea. as long as mum is happy. den mayb tt is all tt matters. i miss my ah ma.. hope to c her soon...

2005-04-23T22:09:00.000+08:00

caused unhappiness in the whole family bcos of things tt i wanted to sae long long time ago but always nv sae.. if i dun sae it, i will b unhappy, if i sae it, others will b unhappy.. wat the fuck? it feels realli terrible when ppl closest to u dun understand u. or mayb not the cloesest.. i realli dunoe should i sae all tt i had said.. but guess its too late to tok bout tis.. everiting has been said. in the most nasty wae. wanted to haf a nice tok.. but it didn't succeed.. so out of anger, frustration n everiting, fuck happen... n i noe the one hurt most is not ppl whu r involved.. i m sori..

2005-04-20T23:27:00.000+08:00

it muz haf been three thousand five hundred n sixty two yrs since i last blog.. bz wif exams juz like everione.. studied.. tough papers tis sem.. hope i will do well... hope everione whu deserve to do well to do well.. hehe..
been working since hols started.. todae is the third dae of work.. everiting's going kind of well.. slack during work.. blah blah blah.. tok cok wif all the freshies.. bully them.. frighten them.. did all the evil things.. chek ark... let's juz hope the new freshies will enjoy their poly life... cos i m enjoying my poly life!! ROCKS!
md camp will b held next wk.. kind of looking forward to it b4 exams.. but change my mind now.. had prac on tue n it realli sux when u didn't play for a whole mth n u try playing for three hrs. it was realli terrible.. felt like shit.. argh! md is so near.. juz hope tt i'll get to improve in the camp.. well well well, whu doesn't hope to improve, but i juz hope i wun sound so like shit n start to rmb my fingerings for all the pieces tt i practise so hard for.. sian! tis is realli sian lor!!

2005-03-28T11:13:00.000+08:00

who is to judge what you call a fair share of things you deserve? who is to judge what do you deserve and who is to judge what is a fair share? dear, why are you so not satisfied? you have a house to live in, food to eat & people who love you. same for me. we should be happy. there are many different people in this earth. everyone receives different treatments. the man up there cannot make sure everyone have the same life, same satisfaction. if you are not satisfied, what about people who have no food to eat, to place to stay in.. what are they? how are they feeling?

maybe you are feeling unhappy about everything around you. family & friends. all i can say to remind you is that, nobody is perfect. everyone has their shortcomings. may it be minor shortcomings or major shortcomings, learn to accept them. remember i always say, as long as they have a good heart everything is secondary. because, their good heart would have overpowered their shortcomings. this is what i mean.

things will change. but things won't change just.. LIKE THAT. and you don't expect people to change just like that to. try handling things with a different approach. maybe it would help. try looking at things from different angles. life is too short to complain about dissatisfaction. makw the best out of the worst situations. remember this.

satisfaction comes from contentment. learn to be contented with what you have. appreciate everything & everyone around you. once you can do it, you would be satisfied with life.

dear, you belong here. (:

2005-03-26T22:36:00.000+08:00

i'm not satisfied... not satisfied wif everiting on earth... i dun belong here.. or i dun wish to belong here... i m juz an ordinary ger whu oso wish to haf a fair share of everiting tt i deserve.. but y m i not hafing all these?? or i m juz being too greedy.. at least i dun tink so.. watever... when will u all understand wat i realli wan?? i'm realli stressed out... n u all will nv noe.. nv.. well.. enjoy ur own life n continue to b lydat... things will nv change... till the dae i die.. or u die...

MEMORIES

2005-03-20T13:42:00.000+08:00

was on bus 166 on the wae to sch for sectionals... suddenly memories came flooding in... ...

rmb the first dae i went for band.. mi, dear, eugene were late.. suppose to reach there at 6.30 but we went there at 7.. had a super yucky freshman orientation where all the seniors get to bully the freshmens.. but there were alot of laughters created during tt. den it was time when dear n mi will go home tog.. juz the two of us.. bonding in the band made us noe quite a number of ppl.. fr 2 of us going home, it became alot of ppl going home tog.. wif ivy, mummy, kyle, siang, kc,denis, shawn, wachi... ...
fr not knowing how to read the scores, hafing to count fr the bottom of the line to determine wat note is it on the score, until knowing how to read a score decently.. fr not knowing teh fingering of c#, d#, f#, g# blah blah blah... till i noe how to play the chromatic scale. i learnt alot.. i realli haf to thxn cindy, thxn her for teaching mi how to play the chromatic scale, thxn her for guiding mi along when i m lost.. then her for practising wif mi.. oso thxn all the ppl whu gave mi guidance. ppl like charmine, teaching mi alternate fingerings, like kyle, teaching mi how to protect a reed n alot more.. realli thxn..
den it was friends in the band tt made band so nice. tt made band a nice place to stay in. frome being not close to band.. until coming to band room everidae juz for lunch.. i came a long wae.. from not knowing anione, to nowing almost everione.. from not knowing everione in the section, until i came to noe wai chin, joanne, chun meng, candice, caren, ah beng, wei liang ... ... it was realli nice noeing them..
frome not knowing james, daniel, until eating lunch wif them, wif dear n cindy almost everidae. we came a long wae. i will nv forget all these.
from not being close to ivy, until now... i tink we came a long wae too. hafing fun taking pics tog.. mi piggy back her, n the other wae round... playing snake n ladder in the band room.. all these r precious memories i will rmb..
while all these r happening...
i built a bond wif my class too.. from tinking tt my class isn't united at all till now tt i tink everyone care for each other... the class came a long wae too.. the bond btw the onli four gers in the class. i can still rmb wat happened during the first dae of sch.. where davis came to sae hi to everyone.. where the tiny serene shaked hand wif mi, wif her tinking tt i look ah lian, n mi tinking tt she is real tiny. haha... until the dae where finally i noe the name of everyone in the class...
time made the gers come tog. can still rmb clearly tt we even made tiff cry by hiding her bag n not returning it to her. the gers in the class came a long wae too..
den its biao mei.. from not liking him in class until todae... where i almost disturb him everidae in class.. we came a long wae too.. though we always argue, but there r times where we oso sat down to tok bout serious stuff.. guess time realli do wonders.
recalling everiting tt happened in poly, there r alot of happy things.. there r oso sad things tt happened. as for the sad things... i shall not mention it here... cos tis is a happy entry! wif all the nice memories in my brain... i hope i will bring all these wif mi thru the whole journey of my life.. i realli thxn everione tt gave mi tis memories.. thxn...

2005-03-16T10:40:00.000+08:00

for wat shit do i even care?? i'm not even in it... at the end of the dae, i might even b the one tt end up being dislike.. the one tt is so kpo.. ren jia dou bu guan le.. y u care? down here, ppl r not treasuring wat they haf.. over there ppl crying over someone's death.. wat the fuck? ppl NEVER learn their lesson.. NEVER until they lose it.. its lydat for mi.. its lydat for everybody...

2005-03-14T00:02:00.000+08:00

alot of things happened the last few days... best fren, classmate, blah blah blah n mi... nutting seems to go rite..
bcos of all these, i tink i realli m not in the rite form.. tout my ap chem test was tml, but onli found out a few mins ago tt it was on tue... tout my crs presentation was tml oso.. but found out oso a few mins ago tt its next wk.. wat m i tinking of?? nutting juz seems to go rite these few days.. i hope things will go back to the normal... pls...!!!

2005-03-09T22:47:00.000+08:00

tink i juz pissed someone off in class a few days ago.. or should i sae she felt pissed off.. got abit irritated by the fact tt she is behaving tis wae.. but tout of wat danny said... so i guess i juz haf to forget bout it.. danny is one guy tt realli made mi admire him by wat he said to mi few days ago.. he's one guy tt realli tink.. wow... tt's cool.. i ought to learn fr him. he once told mi bout ppl tt we hate... did we ever gif them a chance to bcum ppl we luv?? or did we juz condemn tt person forever no matter wat he do?? it set mi tinking.. he's got a broad heart... cool...
was feeling abit down todae bcos of wat happened todae... but i m a hapi ger.. guess i will juz forget everiting by tml moring.. lalalala... i m a hapi ger...

2005-03-06T22:25:00.000+08:00

and so i may need some time to get all well inside. but i know i will be fine one day. because i have you. my bestfriend. (:

2005-03-06T20:21:00.000+08:00

had sectionals ytd but was late for like twenty mins. to my surprise, not alot of ppl was late. haha.. sectional was quite ok but abit tiring. or mayb i m juz getting tired of playing all those songs..
had lunch at staff centre after sectional wif dear, ivy, james, kc, denis, chiu hao... after tt we proceeded to haf super expensive dessert(mangoes) at international building. enjoyed myself.. realli enjoyed myself.. saw ivy hopping ard happily realli makes mi feel hapi.. i feel so so so much beta seeing her feeling beta den the nite b4. as for dear, i noe she realli nd a long time to heal.. she seems ok on the surface.. or at least she isn't getting so so so emotional as the nite b4.. i realli hope she will feel beta soon.. she treasures her alot.. i realli can feel it.. but mayb it is bcos of how much she treasures her tt made her feel so sad bout tis incident... i'm sure they love each other.. but there r so mani other factors in life tt cannot b controlled. i wish them all the best. juz wanna let dear noe tt, she's still there so dun b so sad.. take care.

2005-03-03T21:13:00.000+08:00

went kbox ytd wif dear, ivy,von n juliet... it was real fun.. sang like there's no tml.. but poor juliet had to rot down there cos she dun listen to chinese songs normally. haha.. hoe dear will realli lend her the chinese cd so tt she can haf fun the next time she goes wif us. haha.. classmates went to kbox too ytd bcos it was ah beng's birthdae. guess they realli enjoyed themselves... had lunch, den kbox, den seoul garden... wow! all rich like hell. haha.. aniwae, the whole class gave him a levis jean as a present.. lucky him! haha... after his birthdae will b biao mei's birthdae le. which is todae... went for movies wif 9 ppl fr the class.. hitch was kind of funny.. brought a bag n a pencil box for biao mei at far east...hope he will like it.. haha..
HAPPY BIRTHDAY BIAO MEI!!!!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY AH BENG!!!

2005-03-01T15:22:00.000+08:00

suppose to b doing my report todae bcos i juz got the news tt my report is due tml rather den fri all bcos of THE BEST in my class.. freaking hell... THE BEST has been so "kind to our class man! he's realli kind of pissing mi off wif all the shit tt he given to the class. enough of him.. back to the reality of my report.. i seriously dunoe wat i should do for the last 50% of my report. oh god.. how great... i nd god to send mi an angel to help mi in my report. i had been rushing report for like the past two wks.. its so damn irritating man.. argh.. juz hope i get pass all the report thingy b4 i realise. had my last prac for AE&E workshop. juz threw away the prac lab manual. feel so shiok! haha..
juz went for a hair cut a few days ago.. received some damn negative comments.. but didn't take it to heart.. as long as i like it can le.. haha...
hafing band prac later on. but i m feeling so tired oreadi. i dunoe how m i going to do my report tonite. i can onli c the word DOOM rite now.. haha... i tink i will b too tired to do aniting after band. i even overslept tis morning. was late for class bcos of my topid hair.. haha..i nd a cap soon i tink. haha...
enjoyed myself ytd wif ice cream at swensens wif james, jiawei, ivy, juliet and von... feeling kind of broke after i left but the ice cream was nice. haha... celebrated my ah ma's birthdae after tt.. guess everione was shock to c my new hair style.. my ah ma even told mi tt she couldn't recognise mi n kept on staring at mi. haha... had a tok wif my cousin after tt.. tink she grew up a little... at least we could tok to each other more den the last time we did.. haha.. tt's a great feeling.. knowing tt she grew up a little made mi feel happy for her. hehe...

2005-02-27T17:51:00.000+08:00

suppose to prepare materials for my presentation on thurs now.. but i didn't get the info tt i nd most.. so i can't do aniting now except wait. my grp is suppose to compound everiting tml, but i can do anutting at all now. freaking hell.. i hate tis man.. i can predict tt i wun b able to slp tonite.. SHIT!!!

2005-02-26T23:22:00.000+08:00

feeling kind of fucked up here.. the weather has been super duper hot recently, an d i guess its kind of causing mi to feel easily irritated by everiting. got alot of reports to rush, a presentation to do on thurs.. but i got freaking little time to do everiting. sux!!!
section mate might b leaving mi.. i'm like super duper sad!! realli beri.. mayb i'm juz selfish tt nobody acc mi, or realli sad tt she might b leaving.. but anihow.. i'm juz super super super sad bout it.. its like everiting is so fucked up tis few weeks.. argh!! realli start to feel pressurised.. md is coming soon.. i feel like shit till now.. tough!

2005-02-25T00:39:00.000+08:00

they finally patched things up. I M SO HAPPY!!!

2005-02-23T21:46:00.000+08:00

todae is the last day of CNY le.. the chap goh meh. mum asked us to haf dinner at ah ma hse, can't afford to b late, so went off without waiting for wei, ivy n von. they stayed to noe the results of whu won the compeition to play in MD as a soloist. in the end siang won! haha.. guess they three silly gers were realli hapi for him. needless to sae, siang was oso damn hapi when wei called to tell him the results. way to go man siang!
went home wif daniel todae.. tok crap all the wae.. i even asked him to teach mi how to sing. haha.. he got a real nice voice when it comes to singing. he's kind of talented man... wanted to haf ice cream when we were on the wae out of sch. but we were too late. the stall close le.. sian.. but nvm... we shall b early tml. rite daniel? haha..
juz had my math test todae. first question went wrong. my ans was ridiculously wrong.. but didn't noe what went wrong. so i juz wrote down the wrong ans. its 16 marks! siao.. but the paper was gd overall.. juz pray tt i wun fail. lalala... its a bz wk for mi. i guess i will b bz next wk too. wif all the reports tt nd to b handed in. but i m looking forward to next wed. its going to b fun.. hehe.. let's juz hope its wed when i wake up tml. lalaala...

2005-02-17T18:46:00.000+08:00

tout of quite alot of stuff todae... start to question myself on relationship.. guess i'm quite bad at tt... i'm still so childish when it comes to tt. i onli like to enjoy myself.. haf fun.. haf fun wif alot of ppl.. laugh like its no one's business. i'm juz like a kid man.. i onli tink of myself, tink of my fun.. nv did i spare a thought for others... argh! how childish. n i still demand ppl to change bcos of mi. i'm realli contradicting myself. i always tink tt ppl whu dun suit each other should juz go their seperate ways. y change? aren't u torturing urself? den down here i'm demanding ppl to change bcos of mi. wat the hell m i tinking of man? i'm lost.. i m not believing in wat i m believing animore... wat the?? so should ppl change for the sake of someone else? or should they juz find someone else? i'm confused, i nd to find myself all over again. i'm juz not ready for aniting now. i'm still too childish to handle stuff other den mi. failure!

2005-02-06T16:02:00.000+08:00

seems like it has been at least a few thousand yrs since i last blogged.. alot of things happen during this period of time. new yr coming.. bz preparing stuff needed for new yr.. the whole hse nd to b cleaned up. sian... but bo bian haf to do it...
for the whole first part of the sem, i haf been spending my break wif dear in band room. cindy will b the one opening the door for us. den we will start seeing james coming in.. den daniel started to join us too recently. haha... all the hard core band room ppl. haha... been there almost everydae.. haha...but enjoyed their company.. thxn guys... hope they will b able to come to my hse during new yr to haf fun. haha...
kc went to p.a le.. hope he is doing well down there... take care of urself man. haha.. seems like he's quite happy wif wat he is doing now. so all the best to him in his future. tt lucky man get to come out during the first wk. den get to enjoy his new yr too.. lucky him... but, juz take care.. lalala...

2005-01-13T18:35:00.000+08:00

feel so funi without dear ard mi... its like something is missing sia.. but i dunoe wat... tml will haf to rot the whole noon without her rotting wif mi sia.. wat m i going to do?!!??? I"M SO LONELY! argh... its not tt i wun haf frens wif mi during the noon, but i still feel most at ease when she rots wif mi den others.. wat shit is tt? nvm... juz hope tt she enjoys her trip there n b abck safely.. i luv u dear...

2005-01-11T22:18:00.000+08:00

after toking to dawn online, i m so much happier!! haha.. she's got herself a handsome, cute bf!!! haha.. the guy tt we always tok bout when we were in jc! argh... i'm so so jealous! I WAN A HANDSOME BF TOO!!! haha... three mths there, n i tink i will rmb it for life.. life over there seems so nice... but i m happy wif wat i haf now too! haha.. got dear wif mi... hafing lunch breaks wif her.. meeting up in band room n stuff.. life lydat is gd too. seems like everione is getting attached all ard mi... heard of so so so mani ppl coming tog... as for those whu broke up, shall juz skip it huh? but still glad to hear tt dawn is now wif a bf. hope they can haf a happy time tog.. enjoy each other's company. they had a interesting start.. at least wat dawn told mi was interesting. i wish them all the best, but i m still jealous! hehe...

wif ppl feeling happy, falling in luv head over heels... guess there r ppl out there whu aren't feeling tis wae. i onli got one thing to sae. ur turn will come! sooner or later... time is the key to happiness! lalalala....

2005-01-04T22:23:00.000+08:00

ppl haf to learn to grow up.. overcome things tt they encounter. deal things in the best manner tt u can. i noe u grown up yet again. jiayou jiayou...
when faced wif trouble, mani will tink tt its the biggest shit tt could ever happen to u.. its onli when u encounter bigger shit, den will u start to tink tt wat happened last time is actually nutting. its juz like when we r in pri 6. the biggest thing will b ur psle. but whu would even ask bout it when u had ur o level cert? i guess i grew up the other wae round. i tink differently fr others............. but anihow, i m still glad tt i m lydat... lalala...

2005-01-01T13:56:00.000+08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!! its a brand new yr again... let's juz hope everyone out there will haf a fruitful yr ahead. guess alot of ppl were hafing fun last nite counting down. but rebecca slept at 9 plus pm last nite cos she was sick.. sad... wat a bad wae to end a yr.. haha.. nvm.. its ok... at least slping is one of my hobby?? haha...
new year, new resolution. i hope tt poly life for mi will b enjoying n my classmates b more bonded as a class... blah blah blah.. may it b a happy yr ahead... the sunami thingy is causing alot alot alot of trouble.. alot of ppl died.. its a realli sad thing.. i pray tt tis thing will end as quickly as possible n may everiting go back to normal asap..

2004-12-22T11:18:00.000+08:00

for all the action tt i taken... mayb it is wat tt i should haf done long ago.. but nv had the guts to do tt.. mayb it was words deep deep deep down in my heart tt i cannot find it myself.. or nv wan to haf it dug out. but someone dug it out.. someone put it thoughts in action.. to regret it or not? onli time will tell... time... its a amazing thing.. ppl sae time heal all wounds.. or u juz got used to the pain as time pass... which one izzit? i leave it to others to judge... mayb wat dad said is rite... i m like a cow tt is always being led by the nose... haven't i been trying not to all these years? or i m back to my original self?
met dear in band room.. we spoke to each other.. on all the shit tt happened to her.. all the shit tt happened to mi. the conversation didn't get us aniwhere.. we didn't feel ani beta. or did we? guess we juz felt the nd to tell each other wat the hell happened to our lives...
went town after tt.. didn't had the mood to shop for dad's birthdae present at all.. but had no choice.. is life always lydat? sometimes, ppl juz haf no choice against wat they wan to do... or wat they dowan to do.. life.. haha!! wat the hell izzit?
worst of all.. had dinner at marina last nite.. fuck!!!! of all places... marina!!! fuck fuck fuck!!! n he still had the guts to tok nonsense during dinner! fuck!!!! i didn't even look at him, not sae ans him.. idiot...

2004-12-18T19:19:00.000+08:00

HAPPY 17th BIRTHDAY
to the best BESTFRIEND
in the universe !! (:

woaini, alot alot. hope you like your bday present this year. heh. we will be bestfriends FOREVER ler. i promise, i promise. i thank god for this wonderful girl who came into my life and never gave up on me. from seeing me change alot since the day i knew her. from a small ah lian, to a big ah lian to a young matured lady - as quoted by you. lol. thanks for everything. and thankyou, for you. (:

love,
jiawei.

2004-12-17T22:46:00.000+08:00

sch term started le.. skipped lesson no the first dae, second dae and todae.. haha! tis is bad man! but the time table is realli like shit man..i end at 5 everydae except for wed.. wat the hell.. was laughing at dear for hafing to take 9 modules tis sem.. now here comes the retribution. i m hafing 9 modules TOO!!! wth??
math lecturer reminds mi of alan ng.. haha. my sec sch math teacher.. the wae both of them speak is almost identical.. they all tok like a duck.. dots.. at least tis lecturer teach beta.. so i start to c a glimpse of hope for my extra math module.. haha!!
niwae, is been quite fun still since sch started.. enjoyed company of alot of ppl... ppl like cindy, stella, dear.. blah blah blah... its been fun.. lalalala...thxn for tt guys... we even went out todae n cindy manage to get the fone tt she wan. 7620 i tink.. after so so so much trouble. haha.. argh.. make mi wanna get a new fone to sia.. shit! haha.. but for no reason, i was oso kinda excited tt she got a new fone. haha.. topid ... but had to leave early cos came back to haf dinner wif family. but nanny got angry waiting for dad... even threw his temper.. opps! he's been a beri nice tempered guy all along.. was kinda shock todae... but things turn out well afterall.. phew... i enjoyed dinner n the end.. lalala...

2004-12-09T22:30:00.000+08:00

not on gd terms wif dad recently bcos of his attitude.. we juz dun tink the same n i cannot agree wif him totally.. he have his own views n so do i.. how can i make him understand tt he cannot force mi into agreeing wif his pt of view? haiz... when will tis ever end? everione has his or her point of view. n i believe tt we should juz respect others for tt. might not agree but tt is wat other's think.. we can do nutting to it.. express ur point of view.. leave to others to agree or disagree wif it.. wat more can b done? DUN FORCE IT!
sch reopening next wk.. kind of missing serene n all.. wonder how did they do for their exams.. muz b gd.. since both person tt i asked had 2 dist!! wow.. i m lagging behind .. haha.. looking forward to meeting u guys!

2004-12-05T22:29:00.000+08:00

dad didn't work on fri n we spent the whole dae outside.. woke up at 10 plus, or rather kana woke up by dad at 10 plus. den had breakfast at tiong. mum n dad had some arguement early in the morning. but things turn out well when they went to buy char siew tog. haha.. kind of silly, but at least we didn't have to force ourselves to keep quiet while eating. its kind of a real torture to do tt man.. after tt went to people's park brought stuff.. den went to harbour front. tok whole lots of crap wif mum n bro down there. ended up gifing delifrance a chinese name call da li fan shu. pastamania, ba sha ma ni si er. burger king, bao gen qing. kfc, ken dao ji. swensens, suan si. crap n crap n crap... in the end went to coffee club for lunch. missed lunch cos the topid waitress forgot all bout my order. shit.. sat down there n watched everione. wat the.. lost all my appetite n didn't eat. had dinner at changi at ard 11 plus 12 lydat.. wat gd timing for dinner.
aniwae, went to sentosa todae wif mum, gary, nanny, bro, cousins. tout i could get a tan, but seems like the plan backfired.. now i'm burnt. PAIN!! how m i going to face the world tml? haha.. toking bout tml.. its BESTFREN'S BIRTHDAE!
she changed alot since the dae i noe her till now. fr a small ah lian, to a big ah lian, n now she evolved fr a big ah lian to a young mature lady well liked by so mani. wonderful ger.. she realli grown up.. to b able to tink.. to act like wat she should. to tok like a tinking person.. she's a wonderful ger now.. a real wonderful one.. haha... way to go man dear... i luv u...

2004-12-01T01:01:00.000+08:00

juz finish clearing my doubts bout gems online. seems complicated. n the worst is every yr one muz take it. lalala.. wat more can i do except force myself to read up on all the stuff tt i nd to noe? haha... took down the impt dates tt i nd to noe n found tt without writing for so long.. my handwriting sux! haha...
tok to tpjc fren online.. n finally we decide to meet on the 7th if possible so tt we can catch up on watever tt we nd to catch up. haha... missing dawn's sweet voice, eileen's nonsense, crystal's loud n crazy attitude, yue liang's willingness to let us bully... everiting n everiting.. i miss u guys! hope to c u all soon..

2004-11-27T20:39:00.000+08:00

results is out... it not beri bad, but.. nvm.. let's not tok bout tis...
seems like tis hols band will nv b the same for dear animore... or things realli changed quite alot tis hols.. but band prac is not like last time animore for mi.. izzit a gd change? i dunoe, time will tell i guess...
dear isn't feeling gd at all, but sai wong shi ma, yan zhi fei fu. there's tis guy "sai wong".. he lost his horse.. of cos he tout tt was a bad thing.. but in the end, his horse came back wif a female horse. so in the end instead of losing his horse, he gained another horse. kan kai yi dian ba. ppl haf to learn to let go to gain more things. n i hope tt things will turn out fine for yvonne...

2004-11-21T19:14:00.000+08:00

beens a real long time since i last blogged... been bz since hols started...
been going out almost everidae. wif mum, wif best fren, had band, blah blah blah... until i got no time to blog at all..
mum's birthdae is in three days time. she's getting cuter n cuter dae by dae... haha.. wif all her nonsense, the hols is a fun one... getting older but she nv seems to grow up.. haha.. niwae, brought a new watch for her as a birthdae gift. juz hope she likes it.. n i got it fr dear's parents shop at tekka. haah... thxn her for gifing mi tis idea of getting her a watch..
rite now playing the game tt dear was toking bout in her blog.. hahaha... its quite nice.. hehe..

2004-11-16T14:48:00.000+08:00

I GOT NO TIME TO BLOG!!!!

2004-10-26T13:08:00.000+08:00

exams started todae. hafing a paper at 2 todae. io chem.. sumting i like, but i nv do well.. dots.. but juz hope tt things turn out well todae... oso pray tt dear will do well in her papers... gd luck!

locked out of the room

2004-10-19T14:21:00.000+08:00

hafing presentation todae at three. which is in 40mins time. haha... kind of nervous, but not as nervous as the first presentation tt i had in the com lab. haha.. i hope i wun end up like the previous time tt i present. haha... at least tis time rd i'm not the first speaker of the dae. wat a relieve. mayb tiffany will kana tt... let her haf a taste of wat i felt ba.. haha...
prepared my speech ytd nite till 1am... was so relieved tt i managed to finish it. though tt i could finally go to slp. happily packed my things n wanted to go to my room.. onli to realise tt bro locked the door~~~ called his hp for like three hundred thousand times, but tt topid DEAF pig didn't wake up.. ass!!! so in the end went to my mum's room to slp instead. couldn't slp at all cos i missed my towel, my xiao xin, my bed and everiting else! worst thing was dad snored like the thunder... wat the hell?? i practically couldn't slp for the whole nite... woke up at 5plus am... damn frustrated... finally went to my own room to slp at ard 6.30am when bro came out to pee...-_- realli feel like strangling him man..
den now i'm down wif tis topid flu tt causes mi to sneeze non stop. i wonder how m i going to present later on while sneezing!?!?! haha... god bless...

2004-10-17T23:25:00.000+08:00

as much as i need more sleep, i still can't get more sleep. sheesh.

next week
monday - mechanics sem test
wednesday - OC presentation
thursday - last autocad revision
friday - electronics labtest & autocad practical

nextnext week
wednesday - electronics semtest
thursday - fluids semtest

nextnextnext week
monday - maths sem test

then i'm OFFICIALLY off and i will sleep till i hate sleeping. trust me. (:

and hopefully, we can spend all the time in the world, together. heh.

WOAINI.

i will choose her!

2004-10-13T22:58:00.000+08:00

juz finished toking to dear online, now she's going to slp le.. haben slept for a few nites... she muz be super tired... if not she wun slp at tis kind of holy early hr...haha.. hasn't tok to her for a long time le.. bz wif all the tests, presentation... so didn't realli spent time wif her...
sumtimes i realli wish i could spend more time wif her... even if it means juz sitting beside her without a word being spoken.. she's juz sumone tt i wan to spend my time wif.. sumone i want to b wif... if she was a guy, i would definitely wan him as lao gong, or i were a guy i would definitely make sure she's my ger.. haha... but she's still mine now, cos she's MY best fren.. haha...
hafing lunch wif her tml... finally we can spend time tog.. hehe.. i like tt.. tml will b a gd dae.. even when there's two presentation n i didn't prepare for it at all... lalala...

said wat i haf to

2004-10-12T16:02:00.000+08:00

things are still like wat it is now, but at least i said wat i haf to sae... which is a load off my mind. shall stop tinking of aniting else except my studies now. exams are cuming real real soon. tml hafing a test on io chem for 6chpts!!! n i haben started on aniting yet at all! dots... i'm doom... i hate tis... stress!!! argh... being in tis class realli makes mi feel damn beri stress... everione is damn smart.. but i m not! dots.. nvm, juz haf to work hard i guess....
tink i start to like my class more now. i'm used to the nerds oreadi.. or at least i dun find them eyesores animore.. den i start to like zheng xuan more le... use to tink he is damn beri lame.. but now, i tink he's not tt animore.. although he is still lame.. still tink he realli resembles my cousin alot alot... not in terms of looks, but in terms of attitude.. juz told him tt todae, n he got tt kind of funny rxn on his face.. haha.. laughed my head off todae while toking to him todae... haha... den he started to regret sitting behind mi.. haha.. but i insisted tt i like him sitting behind mi... lalala... too bad for him lah ... haha...

2004-10-08T16:02:00.000+08:00

things aren't getting any beta, but they are not getting worst either. which is gd news? or a gd way of consoling myself?? haha... but at least things are being done. alot of reports and presentation to rush... n i realli mean alot.. but at least we are now doing stuff... making everiting work.. i hope i will b able to cope. or we will b able to cope. exams cuming.. i realli start to feel stress... especially in my class where everione is damn beri smart? nv felt tis stress b4. even the period b4 "o" level wasn't tis bad. tis time is realli beri bad... the guys in my class can spend their time playing cards during class, but do much beta den mi when it cums to test n stuff... haiz... m i tt topid? haha... realli muz study hard le... i dun wan to bottom my class AGAIN! haha...

much thoughts taken

2004-10-07T08:13:00.000+08:00

been a bz wk last wk.. did alot of stuff. n i realli mean alot... at least i did sumting constructive? but being bz didn't stop mi fr tinking alot... or should i sae i thought of alot more stuff tis wk den any other wk? being bz didn't stop mi fr tinking... i hate tis kind of feeling, not knowing wat to do... n doing all kind of shit even b4 i started tinking bout it.. wth... been a long time since i last had lunch wif dear... i miss her.. went to band room the dae b4... saw her... but didn't tok much... juz stoned there... for wat? i oso dunoe... haiz... juz hope things get beta for her, n beta for mi... how bout hafing lunch tog dear?

2004-09-27T08:09:00.000+08:00

tis whole wk i m packed! got alot of reports to rush, n i realli mean rush. haha... todae will b hafing math cad test. i hope i wun fail, if not it realli reflects tt i m the biggest com idiot on earth. after tis will b doing my microbio report after sch. den study for my cppb test on wed. den i tink on wed n thurs staying back for the business proposal n presention for ideas. WASTE TIME!! den sun going to sheryl's hse to do pbl... argh... my life is full of life?!? haha... at least i'm not slacking like when its was hols... tt hols was realli slack all the wae. n i tink now is the pay back time? at least i m working wif the ppl i like.. so i dun suffer so much, i get to bully the gers! hehe.. so they will suffer i guess. lalala... poor gers.. but u tink i care?!? haha... let's juz hope will b able to finish everiting on time.. lalala....

2004-09-26T01:07:00.000+08:00

dear, i helped you edit abit of your blog.
also helped you add some links.
hope you like it. (: WOAINI..

no band prac le

2004-09-23T08:14:00.000+08:00

band prac ended wif the concert. will onli resume until the end of all the tests n exam?? feel so weird without the band prac. wif band prac, always hear mi complain tml still got test but today got band prac, now tt there is no band prac le, i actually start to feel so weird.. so out of place... haha... mayb i m not used to it ba... i wan to bring my clarinet home!! but i keep forgetting... will anione remind mi? haha... niwae, went to band room ytd after lesson at 1. so early.. hehe... few usuals were down there, n they actually played cluedo. haha.. i didn't play.. cos too topid le, dunoe how to play. haha.. cindy n wei lun was cute, they played till so stress. haha... lucky i didn't play?!? hehe... den after tt they actually played scrabble n end up wif words like song bo? haha... table tennis in the band room wif tt puny table was quite fun oso.. haha.. stella juz used too much strength i guess. haha... niwae, had fun ytd, n i didn't start studying for my test todae until 11pm last nite? hehe.. juz hope i wun "top" the class again:(

all in a mess

2004-09-20T08:15:00.000+08:00

came to sch tis morning without looking at the time table( sumting tt i always do) so juz walked the normal route to the T4 side. halfway took out my time table n found out tt lesson is suppose to b at T1A??? so had to turn back to go to T1A.. went up to the third level onli to realise tt actually lesson was at T4 instead cos of the change in time table! wat the... so i was rite initially... ass... walked all the wae down again back to where i came fr... its oreadi 12th wk of sch?? n i m still walking ard the sch like its onli the 12th dae of sch... wat else can i sae? haha...

gj gj gj gj gj

2004-09-18T23:14:00.000+08:00

guo jie juz came up to my hse to get some stuff. we had a foto taking session too cos he juz brought a new digi cam. haha... realli took alot of fotos. but being a topid com idiot, i dunoe how to put it in my blog. haha.. so forget it ba... if ever there's a chance i learnt how to do it, den u guys will start seeing pic in my blog? haha... tink he gained weight le. haha.. wonder how cum ppl in ns all slim down when they book out, but he gain weight lor... how great huh? tt topid pig muz b hafing a gd life inside! being a paramedic... juz hope he is doing well... lalala...

IMB concert is over

2004-09-18T22:48:00.000+08:00

yes, its over le. ytd juz went lydat... tink everiting went on quite smoothly ba. at least the concert was considered a success! saw alot alot of ppl at the convention hall when i went out to perform moon river. tt was like the best thing tt could happen? haha.. realli thxn everione whu came to support! we didn't perform to an empty hall afterall. GREAT! everione looked great ytd (minus the sweating n stuff) haha... was inside the changing room wif other sections. winnie was like so so so kan chiong b4 the performance. cos she's the onli oboe player?!? haha.. but overall i tink u did a great job winnie! wae to go man.. hehe...had a foto taking session after the performance. the whole band, wif lao ban, the vips... tt was great as well. haha... the concert was gd, wat else can i sae besides gd? haha... took foto wif the whole section as well when we were back in the band room. edmund squeezed into the pic of CLARINET section. extra. haha... i luv my section! haha... n thxn cindy for the lollipop n dennis for the sweet. hehe...
met up wif dawn, eileen, crystal, yue liang n ray b4 the concert. we had dinner at fc4. all of them tok non stop while i ate, cos i was rushing for time. haha.. realli enjoyed their company, their stories of everiting n everiting tt happened all these while when i wasn't ard wif them, i miss them.. haha... miss the life in tpjc... but i m oso enjoying myself down here. heez... hope to meet up wif them again soon. their mid yr cuming le. i hope all of them do well for their exams. thxn for cuming all the wae down to support mi. thxn...

2004-09-15T22:29:00.000+08:00

its been a long long time since i last blogged at home. AT HOME! cos com has been gifing mi alot alot of prob, until i m kind of sick of it. but aniwae, i m here todae. hehe...
i juz got back my math test, microbio test.. both oso got first fr the bottom:( haiz. i wonder where did all my motivation when i was studying for o level go... cum back to mi!!!! tink i realli nd to buck up le. cannot slack animore le. but how?!!!?? nvm... i shall find some wae. mind over matter like wat dear said. argh!! ok, enough of study stuff, its kind of boring. hehe..
ok, concert will b on fri, hafing rehersal tml... omg, its getting abit exciting man.. its concert!! its not aniting else, but its concert! CONCERT!! can u all believe it? at least i can't. sumting tt seems so far is suddenly so near. haha.. i tink i m mad. i m still not prepared at all for the concert:( but i will try my best.. jiayou ba rebecca...

2004-09-14T14:58:00.000+08:00

wrong wrong wrong, is ibm camp, not fo camp. wat m i tinking of man? alamak!

2004-09-13T08:54:00.000+08:00

hafing band prac later on at nite, but will b hafing a test at 5-6... tt leaves mi wif no time to haf dinner. sian... feeling kinda stress bout band prac.. tink there will b a guest conductor cuming todae. so juz hope everiting turn out well?? concert is cuming real real soon! n gj wun b able to cum for the concert le:( realli wish he can b here, has been a long time since i last had a gd tok wif him. tout i could catch up abit wif him on the concert nite, but he cannot b here! argh.. wat is going to happen to the three tix tt he brought fr mi? i realli dunoe. haha... juz hope tpjc fren wun cum telling mi they wun b cuming oso. if not i realli sad until die. missed out on the lunch tt they had tog wif ray, so guess i missed out on alot oreadi. i realli hope tt i can c them on concert nite. especially eileen, dawn n crystal. tt three crazy ladies aren't tt crazy without mi!! haha... i will juz forget all my worries when i c eileen, she is juz so adorable, so real of her tt i realli wish i could b wif her at tpjc.niwae, going for next lesson now liao. so shall end here...
missing u guys out there!!!!